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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

No doubt aware of this, the woman adds, “My husband and sons are all in Germany, sir, proudly serving the Third Reich.”

From the start, I’d taken the claims about her family for fact, but are they? Nowadays everyone seems to have a secret.

The officer studies her, his eyes like a pair of black marbles, his holstered pistol within short reach. I brace for the verdict.

He orders the rifle-wielding policeman to go and check. The directive sounds more cursory than dubious, lessening my anxiety a fraction. As Mrs. van der Meer is escorted up the stairs, the officer turns back to us. “Any copper or brass in the house? Candlesticks, door handles, serving ware?”

“No, sir,” Dirk says. “Not to our knowledge.” A marginal hedge.

Klara reiterates with a shake of her head, gaze half-lowered. I do the same as two more “green police” arrive. Testing our denials, they plunder the couple’s bedroom, seeking metals needed for ammunition. One rips through drawers, throwing clothes into a heap. The other upends the mattress and sifts through bedding.

I think of the visible remainders in my satchel, the gadgets packed among the clothing, all meant to withstand typical scrutiny. Praying they will, I glimpse Klara’s quivering fingers. And I remember their listening to the BBC news on their wireless, risking imprisonment.

Are they hiding other crimes? Contraband, weapons? Acts punishable by death.

As the officer inspects our papers, noises from overhead—clunks and thuds—convey rummaging of the uppermost floor. How is it that copper, the insatiable thirst for it, has found me here, bringing more perils to my life?

Dirk clasps his wife’s hand snug to his side. He too must have noticed her trembling.

“Exempt, I see,” the officer reads with interest. “You must be a special man.” He almost seems sincere before he inclines his head, skewering Dirk with a glower. “Special men deserve special jobs. Do you not agree?”

Through Dirk’s silence, a spate of foreboding swamps me.

“How fortunate for you, I will ensure you have just that. In a factory in the Fatherland. I will even wait while you pack.”

“No!” Klara bursts out, and the officer snaps toward her.

“What did you say?”

Dirk intervenes with strained placidness. “My wife is surprised, sir, that is all.” He angles toward her, clutching both her hands with his. “It’s okay, darling. We will get this sorted. I’ll be back soon.”

“Dirk, no…no, please,” she begs, cheeks reddening, tears brimming.

I’m not entirely sure why I do it. Maybe it’s the officer’s flagrant malevolence, far too reminiscent of the soldier in the alley. Perhaps it’s Klara’s aspirations for a family, despite being absurdly idyllic—or because of precisely that. Maybe it’s the couple’s haunting resemblance to how I imagined Jacob and Thea lined up against a wall, lives teetering on the whim of another monster.