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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

The lid is removed, then the artwork. The guard orders them unwrapped. He’s checking for smuggled contraband mere inches above us.

I tell myself we’re safe, that the false bottom, clicked into place, keeps us concealed deep inside. But the thought, meant to be calming, only shrinks the walls. I mentally push against the enclosure, stopping the boards from crushing us both.

The baton strikes the floor of the crate, testing, searching, just above Evelien. From the jolt, her shoe meets wood.

“Halt,” the guard barks. “What was that?”

I lay my finger on Evelien’s lips, demanding she go still, begging her.

Brouwer answers brightly, “Pardon my clumsiness.” A wooden tap sounds, his attempt to replicate the noise. “I just thought you might care for some brandy.” I envision him presenting a bottle from a case. “Today I so happen to have extra.” His voice carries a faint strain that hopefully only I detect.

The guard doesn’t reply. He’s listening. For us.

Again, as Evelien’s breathing continues, I withhold my own. But now a tickling rises in my throat. I fight the urge to clear it, even swallow against it; any of that might be heard.

Finally the guard responds. “I do not drink.” He sounds bitter, as if appalled by the vice. Or maybe by the very offer, seeing it as suspect. A distraction. A bribe.

“Of course,” Brouwer says. “Well. I will just pack this away for another—”

“Although”—the guard seems to reconsider—“the father of my girlfriend does choose to partake.”

“Splendid!” Almost too excited, Brouwer bridles his tone as I continue to suppress a cough. “Here you are. Guaranteed to earn you the utmost approval from your future father-in-law.”

A pause. “You think I need your gift for approval?”

The comment, clearly meant to be playful, invoked just the opposite. I imagine the guard’s glare, sharp as the silence that now descends.

What if Brouwer is taken in? Arrested? How would we help him?

What would become of us?

“I daresay,” Brouwer replies, “if he is even the slightest like a typical German father, any fellow courting his daughter would certainly stand to benefit. Even the Führer himself.”

The silence endures, cold as frost.

The joke was a great risk, blasphemous some would say. One that could get a man shot.

Then a soft sound arises. The guard’s breath. A chuckle. And a moment later: “You may go.”

Chapter 78

After the strenuous series of checkpoints, on a vacant side street near Station Den Bosch, we prepare in the truck to part ways. I pocket funds from the hem of my coat as Brouwer pats Evelien’s head with affection. “You were so good and quiet, little one, yet again.”

She smiles with a touch of pride while embracing her doll. I consider how often her family must have hidden from the enemy, requiring a great many risks by Brouwer.