Chapters (102)
- Front Cover
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Contents
- 1942
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- 1928
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- 1943
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Chapter 86
- Epilogue
- Author’s Note
- Recipes from Fenna
- Reading Group Guide
- Images from Fenna’s Journey
- Further Reading
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Back Cover
The lid is removed, then the artwork. The guard orders them unwrapped. He’s checking for smuggled contraband mere inches above us.
I tell myself we’re safe, that the false bottom, clicked into place, keeps us concealed deep inside. But the thought, meant to be calming, only shrinks the walls. I mentally push against the enclosure, stopping the boards from crushing us both.
The baton strikes the floor of the crate, testing, searching, just above Evelien. From the jolt, her shoe meets wood.
“Halt,” the guard barks. “What was that?”
I lay my finger on Evelien’s lips, demanding she go still, begging her.
Brouwer answers brightly, “Pardon my clumsiness.” A wooden tap sounds, his attempt to replicate the noise. “I just thought you might care for some brandy.” I envision him presenting a bottle from a case. “Today I so happen to have extra.” His voice carries a faint strain that hopefully only I detect.
The guard doesn’t reply. He’s listening. For us.
Again, as Evelien’s breathing continues, I withhold my own. But now a tickling rises in my throat. I fight the urge to clear it, even swallow against it; any of that might be heard.
Finally the guard responds. “I do not drink.” He sounds bitter, as if appalled by the vice. Or maybe by the very offer, seeing it as suspect. A distraction. A bribe.
“Of course,” Brouwer says. “Well. I will just pack this away for another—”
“Although”—the guard seems to reconsider—“the father of my girlfriend does choose to partake.”
“Splendid!” Almost too excited, Brouwer bridles his tone as I continue to suppress a cough. “Here you are. Guaranteed to earn you the utmost approval from your future father-in-law.”
A pause. “You think I need your gift for approval?”
The comment, clearly meant to be playful, invoked just the opposite. I imagine the guard’s glare, sharp as the silence that now descends.
What if Brouwer is taken in? Arrested? How would we help him?
What would become of us?
“I daresay,” Brouwer replies, “if he is even the slightest like a typical German father, any fellow courting his daughter would certainly stand to benefit. Even the Führer himself.”
The silence endures, cold as frost.
The joke was a great risk, blasphemous some would say. One that could get a man shot.
Then a soft sound arises. The guard’s breath. A chuckle. And a moment later: “You may go.”
Chapter 78
After the strenuous series of checkpoints, on a vacant side street near Station Den Bosch, we prepare in the truck to part ways. I pocket funds from the hem of my coat as Brouwer pats Evelien’s head with affection. “You were so good and quiet, little one, yet again.”
She smiles with a touch of pride while embracing her doll. I consider how often her family must have hidden from the enemy, requiring a great many risks by Brouwer.