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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

We enjoyed other pastimes too. On my drawing pad, we’d play the dots-and-boxes game, erasing the lines for additional rounds, as most pages were covered with my tracings and rubbings. After discovering he had learned standard Dutch at his old school—a delightful surprise—I persuaded him to improvise skits in my dialect. We’d pretend we were far off in the exotic cities of Holland. My preference was for the dramatic, his for the silly.

Other nights, if I were awake and heard him coming in from the cold, I would hurry to my front door and raise a hand to say good night, to which he’d respond in kind.

I volunteered once to join his walk, but sensing his reluctance, I withdrew the offer. He didn’t need to expound. Those solitary outings were his own means of finding peace.

We told no one of our friendship. At school or elsewhere in passing, catching his eye would bring me hidden joy. Ours was a bond cultivated in secret—for the most part. A knowing wink from his sister, Thea, implied she suspected a crush. If she did, she’d graciously kept it from her parents. The “sinful influence” of my Catholicism on Arie’s Protestant soul would have guaranteed their disapproval.

Papa, I suppose, might have been more lenient; it wasn’t as if I’d been named traditionally after a saint, and his confessional visits were hardly regular. Still, Arie and I refrained from taking the risk, even to set Thea straight.

In hindsight, I’d say our private meetings, unlike so much in life, were prized as something within our control. They were a conduit for healing.

Just like the thoughtful gift he passed along.

Left beneath my pillow one day was a thick, pocket-size book with a well-worn cover. Houdini’s Big Little Book of Magic & Stunts. As Arie later explained, upon seeing it discarded at the barbershop where he earned pennies to sweep up hair, he received permission to keep the publication, yet once he’d flipped through the pages, his gut told him it was meant for me.

When I opened the book, I was only vaguely aware of the late showman Harry Houdini. Chapter after chapter, through narrative and diagrams, were various methods behind his tricks, starting with sleights of hand involving coins, cups, and playing cards. Past the halfway point, the schemes progressed in complexity: slipping out of ropes and handcuffs, mailbags and barrels. His most secretive illusions would obviously be omitted, and yet…

The notion that a person could escape the inescapable was beyond inspiring. More than bewitching.

It was life altering in ways I never could have foreseen.

Chapter 13

Soon after the stampede, the miners’ passions that had buoyed the strike largely deflated. Like a knife to a ship’s sail, each loss sliced through the fortitude of the workers’ demands. Come March, negotiations with management ended the impasse but left the families questioning the sacrifices made.