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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

My lungs suck in a breath, and Ziegler drops his gun. He steps toward me, staggering, before falling to his knees, then facedown on the floor.

“Fen…Fen…” The voice seeps into my ears as if sieved through cotton.

I turn to the window, where Arie is calling to me, struggling to wave me out with his gun in hand.

Registering the urgency, the need to leave, my mind gains enough clarity to clamber out the window. Evelien is standing nearby, clinging to her doll. I pick her up and rush away with Arie. “It’ll be okay,” I tell her as we pass through the courtyard and back toward the church, away from a man now shouting—the guard, no doubt—and a woman screaming. Ziegler’s wife.

Through the shadows along the street, we travel as a knot. Carrying Evelien, I strive to support Arie, whose breathing grows heavier while navigating our path. Raindrops are thickening, coming faster.

Soon we arrive at a split in the road. We begin to veer right but stop.

Dutch police are gathered in the distance, perhaps just clearing the area for curfew. Though by now, authorities could be searching for Arie and Nel.

We change course and go left. We continue past homes and shops. Once again, there are police ahead. These ones are Germans.

We can’t go forward. We can’t go back.

A siren blares, an alert of the Gestapo coming for us.

But suddenly there are people. From every direction, they’re filing out of buildings and onto the streets.

The alarm is an air raid.

Arie looks at me and swallows. I squeeze his hand, a signal of hope. Folks are heading to shelters, seeking out safety. Unaware, they’ll serve as our personal stream of camouflage. If we hurry.

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The undulating siren, layered with the drone of passing planes, fades slightly when I heave the door closed. No indication of explosions—thus far. With a slide of the bolt, I secure the three of us inside the abandoned workshop. Dusky light through the windows creates a haunted aura.

Evelien stays at my side as Arie works his way to an adjacent wall. He settles on the floor with effort, half suppressing a groan, stoking my concerns.

The girl gives my hand a small tug. “Where are the animals?” Her Dutch words are taut. It’s the first I’ve heard her speak. I brush droplets from her hair and face, gathering an answer.

“We’ll be heading to the farm tomorrow.” I infuse far more certainty into my tone than I possess. With Arie hurt, our plan calls for adjustment; to what length, I need to determine. “We’re just going to rest before our travels. Okay?”

She chews on her bottom lip, her doll kept close, and nods.