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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

I confess, I did come to suspect the use of gimmicks: a hidden floor pedal to tremble the table, a magnet that moved sand into messages, a candlewick rigged to self-extinguish. Houdini would have lambasted each of these, having dedicated the latter part of his life to exposing spiritualists as vulturous swindlers. Still, I’d like to think he’d have appreciated the pragmatic lessons to be learned on presentation and persuasion cued by people’s tells.

“In any event, I’d have gladly kept the job longer, had it not come to a tragic end.”

“How…did it end?” He was wary, as though wondering if we’d somehow summoned a demon.

In a way, we did.

“Mrs. Jansen discovered she’d misunderstood the word ‘spiritualist.’ That it didn’t involve teachings about the Holy Spirit. She saw it as witchcraft and just about had a conniption.”

Hendrik took this in and burst into hearty laughter.

I too could laugh about the situation now. It hadn’t been quite as entertaining when every dime I’d earned from that job—including the portion I’d contributed to the family, as I always did—went into the collection basket at church.

“I’ve definitely got to hear more about this,” Hendrik said, easing to a smile.

As I went to oblige, he added, “How about supper on Friday? You know, if you’re game, with a little poking around, I bet I could even find a magician’s show somewhere.”

An official date with Hendrik Smit…

The idea was sumptuous all on its own. Topping it off with a sprinkling of magic?

Nothing, I’d thought, could be dreamier.

***

On the evening of the performance, Hendrik took me to a quaint Italian restaurant that smelled of stewed tomatoes and roasted garlic. With my hair in a painstakingly elegant twist, I wore my green, scoop-necked dress, chosen to flatter my kohl-lined eyes and girdled figure. I’d packed my raspberry lipstick for touch-ups, as well as powder to fight any glistening from the heat.

None of my preparations, though, aided my attempt to eat gracefully.

Between careful nibbles of my red-sauced linguine, which Hendrik had zealously ordered for us both, I listened to updates about his pals and family and his Midwest travels to sell his uncle’s medical equipment to doctors. In turn, he learned of my promise to Mr. Jansen to wait until I was at least twenty-one before moving to a dazzling city like Chicago to find the perfect stage partner and work our way up to a big-time show. Getting a foot in the door might be tough, but I was determined.

What I opted to leave out was that this gave Mrs. Jansen at least three long months to continue urging me to settle down with a suitable match. A futile effort with good intention. Sure, I was bound to marry someday, just not anytime soon. According to my plan.