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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

Beside the mattress, he sat with his back against the wall. I resettled on my pillow and gazed toward the ceiling. For a time, we remained like that, absorbing the silence, the darkness. Breathing.

Oddly, nothing about it felt strange. Only…content.

Then a cry rang out and I flinched. A baby’s wail. It grew from the apartment below, where the child and its mother had come to visit family. A brief stay, I prayed. For at the strained cries, again a vision flew back of an infant in the stairwell, propped up by its mother suffocating below.

Tears flooded my eyes. Desperate to block out the memories, to not feel alone, I reached across the mattress but caught myself. I started to pull back when Arie’s gloved hand covered mine.

Once more, he made me feel safe.

Before long, the rhythm of my breathing matched the tempo of his. Slow and soothing, loosening my muscles from head to toe. Then my blinks lengthened and eyelids drooped. And somehow, as if by magic, it was instantly morning. The sun was breaking through the clouds and reflecting off the snow.

Arie had vanished, just as before, but not from my life.

Not yet.

***

There were more nights to come when he would save me from the throes of a nightmare. Not hurrying away, he’d distract me by spinning fantastical tales. He’d whisper about brave knights and dragons or pirates pillaging on the high seas. In time, we’d trade stories of our lives and families. Like most immigrants, his parents’ ancestral ties were essentially severed when they boarded the boat, ditto for mine. But what brought us to Eden Springs differed.

Skilled in machinery, his father had been recruited by an acquaintance to move from central Michigan to oversee the maintenance of mining equipment. Mr. Jansen’s negative stance on unions made him especially appealing to management. Yet after working alongside the miners and encountering the conditions firsthand, he sympathized with their cause and supported the strike fully.

“Don’t tell anyone though,” Arie inserted. “About why they picked him, okay?” It was a reasonable request. He didn’t want his father viewed as a planted informer, which very likely had been the company’s intent.

All that mattered to me was where the man stood now.

“Not a soul,” I promised.

Arie nodded easily; the extent of our trust went without saying. Then we returned to competing in jacks, embracing the extra challenge of quietly bouncing the ball. Even though, really, it would take more than that to wake Papa.