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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

Bogart rises from his chair. “It appears our business for today is concluded.” He gestures toward the door, an unsubtle directive. “A secretary will escort you back down.”

But I can’t go—not yet. Not before I ask. At the anticipation of being dragged away, I cast out my question in pieces.

“Arie’s body. After the war.”

All eyes in the room stare.

“Will you bring him home? For proper burial.”

Right then, I realize why the words so fiercely resisted the path to my lips. Because once out in the world, heard and addressed, the matter solidifies the reality of his death.

The men exchange glances. At the trepidation I detect in them, as if seeking the unlucky soul to break the news, I bristle in my seat.

“He was a hero,” I remind them. Relegated to the shadows, he’ll be awarded no medals or public honors. But this they can do.

“Miss Vos…” The humoring note in Bogart’s tone only inflates my tenacity. Despite my anger toward Arie, this is about what’s just. For the sake of his parents, if no one else.

Not letting Bogart finish, I acknowledge what the panel is surely thinking. “Yes, in part he was driven by a personal cause—for which, frankly, I dare any man in this room to have acted differently. But in the end, as you well know, he was wounded securing Nel’s freedom. No doubt, in turn she’ll continue to save others, specifically including our Allied airmen.”

Bogart laces his fingers on the table, suggesting a mulling of my points. “I cannot disagree,” he replies, providing a speck of hope. “Nevertheless, while the decision of repatriation would fall to the United States government in this case, I believe it only fair to warn you that there are many service members whose remains will never be returned.”

Unsurprised by his answer, I insist, “But some will be. And with Britain’s connections and access being stronger, I’d wager your government could lend a hand if desired.”

More glances, the dread in them thickening.

“There is the rare exception,” he concedes, “but I must stress that a great number of servicemen actually prefer to be laid to rest where they sacrificed their life for their country.”

He says this as if he could possibly know what Arie would have wanted. I counter through a clamped jaw, “America is his home. And he could’ve come back to it if he’d chosen to fend for just his own interests.”

“Which is why,” Crockatt asserts gently, “he is being permitted to retain his honorable standing and, as such, will be listed as KIA.”

The acronym is appropriate. Hence, through the immeasurable moment that follows, its effect on me isn’t logical—I know this even as it’s happening—but the letters strike like daggers. They penetrate my will with the finality in their meaning: Killed in Action.