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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

And yet here I am, in a last-minute slapdash scheme. Literally along for the ride. Equally unnerving, I’m doing precisely what I pledged to myself I would never allow again: I’ve placed my fate wholly in another’s hands. And not for just my survival but Evelien’s too.

“Checkpoint ahead.” Brouwer is slowing the truck.

This is it.

I whisper to Evelien, “No sound, no movement. Or we lose the game. Understand?”

She nods on my arm. Our hands remain clasped despite the sweat dampening our palms.

When the vehicle stops, there’s a voice. Presumably a guard. Hard to make out, same for Brouwer’s words. Then a door opens and closes, and soon they’re by the rear of the truck. The door swings open and their voices grow.

The exchange is friendly.

They know each other.

A remark from Brouwer—about a personal delivery to a high-ranking officer—reminds me that he isn’t new to these drives, particularly for prominent clients.

A flipping of papers follows, a cargo manifest, I’d guess. Then silence. The guard must be surveying the boxes to reconcile them with the list.

I hold my breath as Evelien continues her soft inhales and exhales, all seeming amplified in the small, dark space.

The door slams.

Was that it? Could it have been that easy?

Brouwer climbs back into the front and shuts the door. The next thing I know, we’re driving away.

“All clear,” Brouwer proclaims.

A tiny part of me eases, though true relief won’t come until we’re free of this box. Rather, when we’re safely through the mountains.

In the meantime, more rocking and bumping carry us onward. Stretches of smoother roads come intermittently, each a lulling respite if not for our surroundings.

Once more, too soon, Brouwer gives the alert. “Checkpoint.”

I direct Evelien to keep playing our game.

After we slow to a stop, a conversation follows, muffled as before. The door opens and closes. Brouwer has stepped out. But this time, as we await their arrival at the rear, Evelien grows squirmy, tired of being constrained.

I plead with quiet urgency, “Hold still now. Only a little longer.”

She manages to comply just as a projection of voices confirms the opening of the back door. More flipping of papers. More discussion, the tone not as friendly. Then the truck sways.

Added weight.

Boot steps.

The guard has boarded. “Open these.” His Dutch, tinged with a German accent, is razor sharp.

My panic springs back, further fueled by a revelation: harboring a fugitive is crime enough; one tied to the murder of an SS major could warrant a punishment worse than death, for everyone involved.

The truck sways again: Brouwer has joined.

Lids are removed, contents examined.

“What is here?” The guard thunks our crate with what sounds like a baton.

“Collectibles, sir. Rather valuable.”

“Show me.”