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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

I refrain only briefly before hazarding a look past him. Arie is just outside the hospital entrance, back in his dark suit and hat, though without his overcoat. Assuming he wore it going in, either he forgot it or discarded it while rushing, a potential sign things didn’t go smoothly.

But no, he’s acting as planned, presenting a pack of cigarettes to the armed guard. The rationed tobacco is highly coveted next to the usual homegrown sort. When the guard reaches out, Arie purposely drops and spills the open box.

My deliberate fumble with the cards crashes back at me. I fear a similar disaster as Arie kneels with the soldier to collect the cigarettes, but right on cue, the door opens and a nurse walks past. When the guard glances up, Arie corrals the guy’s focus onto their task.

Beside me, the cousin’s murmurs—“Hurry up, go faster”—confirm the woman moving toward us is Nel, though I could gather as much from her steps. Stiff and wobbly, they resemble those of a person attempting a sober facade. Or, in this case, recovering from a head injury after weeks of confinement in a bed. The closer she gets, the more unstable she appears, and the faster my heart thrums.

If she collapses, even stumbles onto the cobblestones, what would we do?

Her cousin lifts his pistol to midchest. He seems to be gearing up for those very scenarios. Holding off the guard, however, would leave Arie stuck between.

Don’t fall, Nel. Whatever you do, don’t fall.

She has fewer than fifteen feet to go. A lock of dark hair slips from her nurse’s cap as she trudges toward us.

Ten feet…

Five…

One…

The instant she rounds the corner, the cousin grabs hold of her, keeping her upright. She greets him with a weary smile, her face strikingly similar to typical mothers at the market, on the buses and trams, unsuspecting. Then I spot Arie starting our way, and a small burst of hope tunnels through my apprehension. How I wish he could break into a sprint without attracting notice.

In recalling my role, I gauge the street behind me. Still empty, both ways.

When I turn back around, Nel is leaning against the wall. Her cousin, no longer supporting her, has raised his pistol again. Finger on the trigger, he’s readying to aim around the corner toward the guard.

Or is the target Arie? There’s no way to know until he shoots.

The debate clashes in my head. If I delay intervening, I could be too late.

“Halt!”

My eyes dart toward the voice. It’s the guard—except now there are two, and they’re clutching their rifles. In the doorway, a man in a white coat is gesturing frantically. A doctor has discovered the swap.

Arie freezes with hands up, his back to the soldiers. Shock traps my breath as they proceed to advance on him.