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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

I’m recalling where I left off when I notice the new arrival’s gait, and my breath catches. His limp clues me in even before I recognize his face, chiseled and dashed with a thin brown mustache. The SS captain from the village. The cold-blooded Hauptsturmführer.

All at once, I recall the field executions, the lineup at the bus. Would he remember me from the morning after the night drop? Who’s to say he’s not still hunting the missing “fourth”?

“Go on, go on,” Orpo says, impatient for my reveal.

Nearly dropping my palmed card, I aim to steady my hands, my voice, to resume with Abbott. “Perhaps, somehow…your card landed in my own pocket.” I give my coat several pats, all while making my hands look empty. “How strange,” I say, as the captain takes a seat at the table. “It must be in the room somewhere. It couldn’t have simply vanished. Or could it?” For a mere moment, not dragging out the buildup, I concentrate on a spot in the air and lurch with my hand, snapping the card into view as if appearing out of nowhere.

A partial smile edges out of Abbott, boosted by chuckles from his first two pals. Yet their approval is suddenly the least of my concerns.

As the captain packs his pipe with tobacco, a compulsion bolts through me: to clear out of this room, to avoid his gaze.

“I am terribly sorry, gentlemen,” I say regrettably, “but I really ought to return for dinner.” I’m fast to add, “If you’ll permit me.”

Orpo responds as though I’ve not spoken. “Give us more.”

But Abbott, then Costello weighs in, speaking German; they seem to have greater matters to discuss. As the captain lights his pipe, further choking the air with each smoky puff, Orpo ruminates. “One last trick,” he grumbles, conceding. “Make it good.”

In another time and place, the stipulation would mean little. Here, reinforced by the sight of his hand resting on his pistol, disapproval could end with a bullet to the head.

And so I begin to shuffle. I need to work fast while looking calm, perform well but not excessively so and, as much as possible, divert attention from myself. It’s this last thought that spurs me to fumble, dropping half the deck onto the table.

A deliberate flub. I audibly gasp to help sell it.

The misdirection will allow me to set up the rest of the deck by flipping the bottom card in my grip while, reliably, at least one spectator—Costello in this case—reaches reflexively for the dropped cards.

Typically I hurry to regather the deck and continue with the trick that dazzled many a street crowd in Chicago. For once, however, I don’t get that far.