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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

He holds the bottles up between us. “Where the devil did you get these?”

Expecting the question, though not his intensity, I trip a little through my reply. “A pharmacy, from the owner—well, his wife. I’ve been renting a room from her on an upper floor.”

“Does she know what it’s for?”

“Of course not—not specifically.”

“What do you mean ‘not specifically’?”

I aim to stay calm, even as he triggers my defenses. “She simply knows it’s to help people and that I couldn’t tell her more.”

He huffs and glances away, muttering, “That’s just swell.” Sharply squaring to me, he returns the bottles to the table, not slamming them, but neither is he gentle. “This is all the evidence she needs to turn you in. You realize that?”

“She won’t though,” I insist, reflecting on the encounter, how she volunteered the offerings. “I know it.”

“You don’t know that.” He bends to loom over me, hand planted on the table. “Think of Thea and her family. After almost a year of hiding and caring for them, just like that, the Brouwers tossed them out like meat scraps to a pack of wolves.”

I loathe feeling like an admonished child, and the Brouwer family’s betrayal still seems peculiar. Nonetheless, his point is impossible to counter.

He adds, “At least tell me you haven’t spoken of Evelien—to anyone.”

I open my mouth to fire back that of course I wouldn’t have, but the protest catches in my throat. Because it isn’t true.

“Fen,” he rasps. The fear in his voice reaches his eyes. “Who did you talk to?”

I fight the impulse to shrink into my chair. After all, Arie himself just secured help from a stranger. I answer, mustering confidence, “Willem. He was my contact. One of yours too, he said. He’s actually how I knew where you’d been spotted when—”

“I don’t know any Willem.”

I gape as Arie stands warily upright.

“But he said…you two communicated…”

“When?” he presses.

I’m trying not to panic. I could describe Willem’s looks—except that a tall blond with blue eyes describes half of Holland. “He told me the other day. When I first met him.”

“No, when did he say we communicated?”

My mind scrabbles for purchase. “I don’t know… He didn’t say exactly.” I’m questioning if I’ve been fooled, how many details I gave him, and what he’ll do with that information. “He only said he passed you a note, from a distance. And that just this week, he was trying to find you, to get you in touch with London.”

Arie relaxes a fraction. “It’s Anton,” he says, a conclusion to himself.