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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

He’s answering me, I realize, though I scarcely see how this pertains. I supply what he already knows: “Your mother would toss them in a drawer, unread.”

“Yeah. I thought so too. After about four years, apparently the stamps and postmark switched—not from Wisconsin anymore, the Netherlands. At some point, my mother gave in and read one. Wouldn’t write back, on account of pride of course, but wound up going through them all.”

Having lived under the family’s roof during that time, through all those letters and years, I admit to him, “I had no idea…”

“None of us did. The thing is, Jacob—that’s Thea’s husband—he first came to the States with his brother. By the time the market crashed, the brother and wife had two boys. They tried to stick it out, but as the Depression dragged on, Thea was struggling to have a baby, so probably welcomed the change. Anyway, Jacob’s old man was an importer in Holland, a widower. When he fell sick, the group sailed back and the brothers inherited the company once he passed. All real sensible, right?”

Arie ingests more from his flask, and I envision Thea. Frozen in my memory, she’s a teenage girl with a honey-blond ponytail, a sweet smile, and a playful wink. Not a married grown woman.

“How did you learn of all this?”

“Over supper, a couple years ago. Pop and I were yammering on about Hitler and of Europe being on the brink of another war. I was already in the Engineers, bridge building at that point. Out of nowhere, Ma blew a gasket. She finally told us about the letters and how Thea and her husband moved over there—here, I mean—and even had a little girl. Evelien. That bit struck Pop awfully hard.”

I briefly forgot where we are just now, and it dawns on me that Arie came to the Netherlands to help them. But before I can ask, he says, “Then fear grabbed hold, for all of us, with Jacob’s family being what they are.”

“What do you mean?”

His eyes level with mine. “They’re Jews, Fen. That’s why my parents had refused to give their blessing.”

The cause of Thea’s estrangement gains instant clarity, and an old Dutch saying from Mrs. Jansen drifts back: Where two religions share a pillow, the Devil sleeps between.

She wasn’t speaking of me but of her daughter. One potentially now in peril, given the treatment here of Jews. I tense from apprehension before I recognize that if the worst had occurred and Arie knew, he’d have no personal cause to stay.