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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

“Of course,” I agreed. “We’re friends.” My tone was adamant enough to drain the tension from his shoulders, if not fully from the air. So I did the first thing that popped to mind: I flailed the dishrag toward him, spraying soapy dishwater across his button-down shirt.

At his jaw going lax, I burst into giggles that broke off when he lunged for the sink and threw suds at my face. I stood there, chin dripping. He snickered and clapped as if victory was his. It wasn’t.

I came back with a full scoop of water, and through our laughter, the battle raged. We drenched our hair and clothes, the worn floorboards and floral wallpaper, until a pair of voices swung us toward the doorway.

Whether his mother, beneath her scowl, shared any of her husband’s betrayed amusement, I couldn’t say. What I did know was that Arie and I were solely responsible for cleaning up, which we did in a hurry with stifled smiles.

I knew this as well: more than anyone in my life, Arie had a knack for saving me from a foul mood. Not just over some nettling comment but over the darkest of causes. Like that of the coming winter.

Mid-December, more precisely.

***

It was the tail end of 1930, and our schoolmates were merrily counting down the weeks until Christmas. For me, the approaching holiday marked the second anniversary of a dark event and my first Christmas without Papa.

Carols, gifts, holiday sweets—they were all cruel reminders that only intensified my nightmares and revived my sense of solitude. On our walks and at home, Arie too became increasingly reserved. There was no reason to state why; words couldn’t reinvent the past. Rather, he found us another way to brave the present.

A few days before Christmas, he dragged me out on an errand, which I took to be a task for his parents. Bundled up in the middle of town, we hopped off the streetcar.

“Cover your eyes,” he told me.

“My eyes?”

“It’s a surprise where we’re going.”

“I thought…you said—”

“Never spilled the details. Now go on. You can watch the ground if you want.”

“Arie, this is silly. Just tell me what you’re up to.”

“What, you don’t trust me?”

A nonsensical question.

I grumbled, wary of the unpredictable yet admittedly tickled by his efforts. Once I’d tented my gloved hands around my eyes, he led me by the elbow over pavement strewn with snow. A motorcar passed, rattling and slushing down the street. Strangers shuffled by, possibly gawking; my view of them was limited to their shopping bags and shoes.

“Why can’t I look?” I groaned.

“Don’t be a mule.”

“I hardly think I’m being—”

He tugged my arm, pausing my steps. “Two, please.”

“Two of what?”