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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

By the time I returned, armed with a clothespin, fork, and cup, my assistant had attracted a pair of volunteers for our act. A handsome man in a snappy suit and a rosy-cheeked woman in a lavender dress were seated on the floor, where Poppy was demonstrating how to break free of the string she’d looped around their wrists. The instant they succeeded, the couple burst into smiles, the woman calling her “cuter than a June bug.” And from the traded warmth in all their eyes, no one could deny the three were meant to be a family.

It was every orphan’s dream.

Including mine.

A dark emotion rose within me, a plume of jealousy, reminding me of all I had lost. Straightaway, I did my best to tamp it down. Poppy deserved this and more.

Not surprisingly, after the trio delighted in a lengthy lunch, I heard that Poppy was sent upstairs to pack. Her paperwork was being finalized.

I headed to our room, prepared to share in her glee, at least to try. What I found there left me staring.

On her cot, Poppy sat tearful though adamant, clutching a fistful of our string. “I am not going with them. They can’t make me.”

“But…why? What happened?”

She paused, shook her head.

I moved closer. “Did they say something to you? Something bad?”

Another no, without details.

Assessing people was one of my strengths. Wasn’t it? The couple had seemed so nice. Maybe too nice. Poppy might have figured out they were phonies, or something else about them was off.

“I’m so sorry, Poppy. If I’d known, I would’ve found an excuse to pull you away. I thought you really liked them.”

“Well, yes, but—” She huffed. “What about our show? You said you’d teach me a bunch more tricks. So you see? I can’t go yet. Will you tell Mrs. Atwood? Please, will you?” The look in her eyes caused a pricking of moisture in my own, because she wasn’t just asking; she was begging. It didn’t matter that the director would never agree.

I realized then: for those who couldn’t recall life outside a cage, being set free was a terrifying thing. The orphanage was far from ideal, but it was the only home Poppy knew.

She needed a nudge, one more powerful than words.

Before I could think better of it, I knelt to reach under my cot and fished through my travel bag. A gift meant to be passed to someone who needed it more.

My gut, like Arie’s had, insisted on it.

I sat next to Poppy and handed over my book. The book. In it were plenty of tricks I’d yet to tackle, not to mention escapes, but they weren’t presently my priority.

Mouth agape at me, she was asking, Are you sure?

I smiled. “It’s yours.”