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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

I rush down the lengthy hall, passing framed posters of previous shows. At the end, I turn right, toward the stage doors, and find the back of a man with a familiar build.

“Charles?” For a split second, I fear my mind is once again playing games. But then he pivots my way. Indeed it’s him, dapper in a pin-striped suit, his black curls tamed with tonic and amber eyes deep set. “You’re here,” I say in partial disbelief.

The corners of his mouth slide upward. “Yeah, well. Been hearing about a snazzy Dutch dame who vanishes in a crate. Since she’s earnin’ all the raves, figured I’d best size up the competition.”

I can’t resist smiling with a hint of both satisfaction and pride.

Fedora in his grip, he gestures while edging closer. “You got my gift, I see.”

I glance down. “Oh… Yes, thank you. It was so generous of you.” Sparked by memories of his plum kerchief, I recall our last encounter and with it my cowardly departure. No longer one to hold much in, I add, “Especially after how I left. Dashing off a note, not even speaking with you first.” Undeniably, it was a shameful habit of mine. “Really, Charles, I’m very sorry—”

“Nah.” He advances a full step. “It’s me who’s sorry.” He shakes his head, reflecting. “There were things I was dealing with back then, and not real well. What with my 4-F gnawing at me, leaving me feeling like—” He lowers his eyes, conveying a revived humility. “Crux of it is, I was a downright chump.”

How absurd of me not to discern the true root of his behavior before. As confident as I’d been about reading people’s tells, I should have seen that his inability to serve in the war was never a relief to him. Apparently I wasn’t the only one keeping up walls.

“So…” I offer him my hand. “We have a truce?”

He grins thoughtfully before humoring me with a shake. Then after a brief lull, he says, “Ya know, I’m back on the road next week. Maybe we ought to combine efforts sometime. Give folks twice the bang for their buck.”

I shrug, withholding a smile. “Why not? I could always use another assistant.”

He lifts an eyebrow and purses his lips, a sign of touché, and we both laugh.

“Hey,” he ventures, “how about a late supper tonight? We could celebrate your stardom with flair.”

I barely contemplate it; I have Evelien to consider. At the boardinghouse, she needs her sleep, or by morning she’ll become—as her oma says—an “angry berry.”

“I’m sorry, but I can’t.”

He appears disappointed but resigned. This, after all, is what I do.

Then an option comes to me. “But maybe brunch tomorrow? Before the matinee?”

He blinks, surprised. “I’ll leave my details at the box office.”