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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

“Sit,” she tells Evelien, flicking her chin toward the bed. That’s when I notice a thin but large book in her hands.

Evelien looks to me for confirmation, a habit that’s become infrequent as of late, but for this situation, I can’t blame her.

“Listen, now, to your oma.” I encourage her by patting the area on the coverlet next to me. Defying the woman will earn Evelien no points, but also my interest is piqued.

Mrs. Jansen takes her place on the other side of the girl and opens the book—a scrapbook—and points to the first photo.

“This baby… You see?” She doesn’t wait for an answer. “This is your mama.”

Though still cautious, Evelien leans in for a closer view.

“And this boy—your uncle. Arie.”

There’s a sharp pull in my heart, as I’ve never viewed these pictures before, had no idea they existed. Moreover, their neat arrangement and the lingering smell of rubber cement suggests they were assembled only recently and with care.

Moisture rims my eyes as she goes from page to page. School certificates and report cards, even some classroom art projects are adhered throughout. Although her narratives are sparse, she addresses each of Evelien’s inquiries over the contents.

Halfway through, at the top of another report card, the name penned in cursive takes me by surprise.

“You included mine,” I realize aloud.

Mrs. Jansen tsks, her brow pinched, as if the observation is idiotic. “Of course. This is book for family.” Then she promptly resumes her presentation, but the meaning behind her reply causes a few tears to sneak down my face. A few more follow when we reach Arie’s military portrait. In his Army dress uniform, he’s so dashing the sight briefly steals my breath.

Averse to dampening the mood, however, I latch onto the diversion of Evelien perking up at the next photos. Clearly sent by her mother, they include the couple’s wedding portrait and a snapshot of them posing by a canal. Bubbling with growing excitement, Evelien volunteers the names of her uncle and aunt and cousins. It saddens me to know they’re all gone, but then I marvel at how, in this moment, that doesn’t at all sink the girl’s spirits. And when she spots herself at various ages, I can’t help but smile at her giggles.

As soon as we reach the end, Mrs. Jansen shuts the cover. No fanfare. “You sleep now,” she tells Evelien. “When you are older, we read letters from your mama.” She’s about to stand but instead pauses and peers at Evelien. The girl gazes back, unblinking. Without a word, Mrs. Jansen touches the top of her granddaughter’s hair, a tender stroke that trails off at her little round cheek. Then the woman rises and leaves the room, but not before I catch the glimmer of wistful tears in her eyes.

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