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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

I mean to nod but am unsure I do. He glances at my fingers shaking on my knees. Unable to still them, I wrap my arms around my middle, hands curled out of view.

“Hey,” he says, “c’mere.” He settles at my side and, without pause, places a strong but caring arm around my shoulders.

I detest ever appearing the damsel in distress, with Arie above all, yet I can’t deny the comfort that flows through me in an all-encompassing wave. His velvety tone alone wraps me like a blanket. When I relax my head onto the curve of his collarbone, my heartbeat slows and shaking ebbs.

We sit that way for a good while, even after the rumbling of war fades, our inhales and exhales linking in an old, paired rhythm, like partners reunited in a long-ingrained waltz. The candle’s flame sways over the walls, almost hypnotic.

That’s when a revelation comes to me: how deeply I wish this moment would never end. For after fleeing a home, a state, even countries to protect us both in different ways, I wound up right here beside him, amid unspeakable dangers, unable to recall the last time I felt safer.

“Arie?” I keep my eyes down, not wanting to falter.

“Yeah.”

“Tell me a story…will you? The way you used to.”

Given our ages, let alone our surroundings, the notion must seem absurd. But his breath drifts out, suggestive of a warm laugh. “About pirates, you mean?”

I shake my head no against his shoulder, and I imagine he’s scouring his memory.

“Knights and dragons?”

“A story about us.”

His arm on me tenses, indicating I should stop there. Instead, with little left to lose, I close my eyes and describe the scene rolling through my mind, vivid as a film flickering on a screen. “A story,” I tell him, “of the morning I’m about to walk out. How you come home early and refuse to let me leave, not without explaining. And because you’re there with me, I find the courage to tell you why. Then you take me into your arms, and that overwhelming fear of mine, it all falls away.”

I hear my voice splintering yet continue to push through. “When your parents get home, we burst out with the news because we can’t possibly wait till supper. And the very next day, we dash off to the courthouse, just the four of us. It’s nothing big or fancy as we exchange our vows. But everything about the day is beautiful and perfect, and we live happily ever after, together.” Tears pool in my eyes as the vision fades. Still, I dare to lift my head and meet Arie’s gaze. His eyes too are glossed, which only adds to the emotion thickening my throat.