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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

In his notable absence from gathering supplies with the stagehands, I envision varied possibilities of our confrontation. To allay my simmering guilt, I remind myself who instigated this tug-of-war, one that has assuredly run its course. By the time the stage is cleared, I’m prepared to mitigate an eruption or endure a scolding. I’m hoping for a meager lecture.

Still in costume, I enter Charles’s dressing room and try for a light tack. “And with that, I hereby declare a truce.”

Charles doesn’t so much as pause while buttoning his white collared shirt, standing before the illuminated mirror. “A truce…” He repeats the phrase as if sampling a foreign flavor. Suspenders hang loose down the sides of his slacks. His unfastened necktie lines his collar. “Funny. Didn’t know we were at war.” His tone is pure nonchalance, a scenario I find oddly unsettling.

“Listen, Charles. We’ve both had our fun. After tonight, well, I figure we’re square.”

He moves on to the ends of his sleeves, applying his cuff links.

“Charles?”

“Hmm?”

His room, indeed more spacious than mine, lacks a window, compelling me to leave the door open a crack. I advance inside for privacy’s sake and address his reflection. “Did you hear what I said?”

A brief glance upward. “Sure. I heard ya.”

“And?”

“Haven’t caught a question.”

“I’m…trying to say…”

It dawns on me that his impassivity is but a facade, a demonstration of my inability to affect him. I brush aside a needling of resentment and continue. “My trick with the locks, I just thought it would add some pizzazz. As you saw, or must’ve heard at least, the crowd really responded.”

“Ah. So that’s why you did it.” His tone, though revelatory, makes it clear he’s not fooled.

The repercussions of our respective schemes don’t strike me as equal. Yet I suppose I can muster the gumption to come clean for my part. “All right, I confess. It was a small act of revenge, and…for that I’m sorry.” And I genuinely mean that.

Even if I did enjoy showcasing my own special skills.

Charles begins fastening his necktie without looking my way. Without even a courtesy of acknowledgment. Good grief, he expects me to grovel. How convenient of him to forget all about last night’s finale.

Refusing to lose my composure, I merely pivot and start for the door.

“I don’t think so.”

The remark stops me cold. Plausible meanings riffle through my head: a command not to leave, a rejection of my apology. Against my better judgment, I turn with arms crossed, a silent demand that he elaborate.

“Way I see it,” he says, still facing the mirror, “it wasn’t so much revenge. It was jealousy.”

I suppress a laugh, barely. “Of?”

“The rave review. My feature in a major paper.”