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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

Dom Tower, with its gothic belfry that reaches several hundred feet into the sky, assists as a navigational point. In another time, I’d gaze in awe at its intricate beauty; same for the medieval architecture and cathedrals and monuments strewn about. Instead, I stride over the cobblestones as if these sights are nothing out of the ordinary.

Beside a long stretch of businesses closed for the day, I pause to discreetly orient myself. A small cluster of armed soldiers appear at the corner, ribbing one another while ambling my way. From the other direction, a black Mercedes Benz pulls over to park. Swastika pennants flank the hood.

Residual panic simmers in my gut, worsened by a sense of enclosure.

I detour by crossing the street. Near a small bridge, two ladies emerge from a staircase. The steps lead down to the Oudegracht, the “old canal” that runs from the original moat of the fortified town and through the center of Utrecht. The walkway below, vacant and dappled with trees, offers a chance for reprieve.

As I descend, an elderly fellow drifts past in a rowboat. I proceed alongside the water, feigning a casual Sunday stroll, unwinding a string of breaths.

“Miss.” The voice in Dutch turns my head.

But the speaker isn’t the rower. It’s a man around my age, at the base of the stairs. In an overcoat and tweed cap, he boasts a perfectly Aryan face. One I recognize. On a station bench, he’d been reading the paper. The realization he’s trailed me all this way isn’t what chills me most. It’s the intensity of his stare.

On impulse, I increase my pace slightly. Too quick and I might draw additional attention. I’m hemmed in by the canal on my left, a stone wall to my right. There’s no way to cross without a boat—unless at street level. Past several trees up ahead, a brick bridge arches over the water. From the walkway, a staircase must lead upward for access.

“Miss Hofman.” Implicit in the tone is a command to stop. “Ida Hofman.”

My cover name…

I glance back, tempted to slow as he strides closer. But then I recall announcing my name at the newsstand—perhaps not in its entirety, though I can’t be sure in this instant—and the Germans might have already had that information.

“Please,” he says, more insistent. “We should speak about your friend.”

My friend—does he mean Bram?

Being wrong could prove fatal. The thought doubles my desire to run, right as I pass the last tree and stop short.

There’s no staircase to climb. The base of the bridge creates an impassable wall.

I’m cornered.