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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

Toting my satchel, I disembark at Utrecht Centraal, the main railway station of the city. The proximity of several German-military institutions, headquarters, and installations is instantly evident by the number of service members walking about, notably higher than in the village. Posted signboards appear to give instructions and warnings, all in German. Expected though most startling, swastika flags hang on buildings, staking territory in the colors of death and blood.

I stifle a shiver as I enter the station as originally planned, minus a companion. With armed guards posted at each door, I continue directly on a path memorized from a diagram. Silently I review the coded phrases Bram and I were supplied at our final briefing.

Past the ticket lines, I round the last booth and there it is, tucked in a far corner: the designated newsstand. As eager as I am apprehensive, I maintain a natural pace. In an adjacent waiting area, presumed travelers are parked on long benches, among them soldiers and suited gentlemen immersed in periodicals and teenage girls in conversation. An older couple shares a snack while an agitated woman struggles to rein in a pair of youngsters. In shorts and knee-high socks, the kids are attempting to play tag.

Few in the group spare me a glance.

The last newsstand customer leaves as I approach. Behind the counter, a woman shuts her till box and turns to me. She’s around sixty, her cocoa-brown hair streaked with silver, shadows underscoring her eyes.

My greeting stalls. A man is to be my contact.

Or was that my assumption?

“Well?” she says, more an order than a question. Her Dutch speech reminds me to use the same.

“Could you tell me, ma’am, are you the usual vendor here?”

A furrow splits her brow. “Always. Why?”

Wary of surrounding eyes and ears, I rush to assemble a reason. “I was just wondering which paper you recommend most.”

Her shrug of apathy resembles a twitch. “Whatever you choose. It is no difference to me.”

I nod, smiling tightly. Neither had I expected my contact to be this brusque.

Swiftly I scan the display, each headline boasting a Nazi victory. Propaganda parading as facts. I swipe two issues at random, hurrying before another customer can approach. “These will do.” I set them on the counter and fish for coins in my coat pocket. “I’m curious, by the way”—casual though annunciating, I segue to Bram’s coded phrase—“is Park Lepelenburg a short walk from here?”

Yes, it’s a nice spot to watch the ducks, the vendor is cued to say, to which I’m to add, I am sure it’s even lovelier in the summer.

“Not far,” she states.

Then…nothing.