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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

Normally a drop into occupied Europe requires weeks if not months of training. But nothing about our situation is normal. Wait that long, and any chance of locating Arie will be gone. That this plan is actually going forward indicates how I’m being viewed: uniquely skilled yet expendable. A gamble worth the risk.

In three long, crammed days, I become an artist’s assistant named Ida Hofman, complete with a Dutch identity card and passport. My Dutch speech is ruled passable, thanks to years of interactions with neighbors in Amesboro, some of them fresh immigrants, many of them elders set in their ways. Ironically, my dialect gained from the Jansens is deemed slightly stronger than that from Papa, causing me another twinge of remorse.

To cover my bases and any flaws in my accent, I transform into a native of the Groningen province now living in Elspeet, a village in the province of Gelderland, with a full family tree and history. Absorbing these details is a cinch after years of memorizing scripts and acting a role. The information is drilled into me regardless, along with knowledge of daily life to avoid standing out: rationing, customs, transportation, even walking. The British habit of first looking right when crossing the street, a fatal tell in Holland, is one I’ve mastered since moving to England and must swiftly break. To buffer me against any other distinct norms I could miss, I’m to play a visitor of Utrecht—my destination city—meeting a dear relative on holiday.

As for physical training, I’m permitted to bypass lessons I could literally teach, from escapes and evasions to gadgets and maps. Among the more helpful sessions involve defensive maneuvers and parachute drops—simulations, that is. Strapped to wires in an airplane hangar, and once from a hot-air balloon, I practice jumps with eager recruits from an unnamed section.

I do realize, of course, that my trepidation over a plane ride shouldn’t drastically outweigh that of a subsequent leap and plummet through the sky. Nevertheless, focusing on the latter helps sustain my fortitude, as does avoiding related reminders.

Like the unsettling one before me.

Massive on the screen at a cinema in London, a newsreel is showcasing a British bomber. “And look here,” the male narrator exclaims. “These brave lads of Tiger Squadron prepare for their voyage on a mighty Lancaster. Oh my… It appears they have created a special gift for their journey.” The grinning airmen pose with an enormous bomb painted with the message Easter Egg for Hitler.