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Chapters (102)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Contents
  5. 1942
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. 1928
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. 1943
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Chapter 56
  64. Chapter 57
  65. Chapter 58
  66. Chapter 59
  67. Chapter 60
  68. Chapter 61
  69. Chapter 62
  70. Chapter 63
  71. Chapter 64
  72. Chapter 65
  73. Chapter 66
  74. Chapter 67
  75. Chapter 68
  76. Chapter 69
  77. Chapter 70
  78. Chapter 71
  79. Chapter 72
  80. Chapter 73
  81. Chapter 74
  82. Chapter 75
  83. Chapter 76
  84. Chapter 77
  85. Chapter 78
  86. Chapter 79
  87. Chapter 80
  88. Chapter 81
  89. Chapter 82
  90. Chapter 83
  91. Chapter 84
  92. Chapter 85
  93. Chapter 86
  94. Epilogue
  95. Author’s Note
  96. Recipes from Fenna
  97. Reading Group Guide
  98. Images from Fenna’s Journey
  99. Further Reading
  100. Acknowledgments
  101. About the Author
  102. Back Cover

I assured Lenora I’d return by bus, releasing her to other tasks. Part of me wishes I hadn’t sent her off so soon.

The nurse, being called to assist with a patient’s outburst, directs me to continue the last few yards. I slow at the half-open door, where I’m greeted by the familiar smell of cigarette smoke. Seated in bed, unrestrained and propped against a pillow, Hutton appears to be scribbling on paper. My footfalls draw his eyes.

“At last! Miss Vos, please come in.” His lucid state knocks me for a loop. It strikes as particularly incongruent in light of his appearance, with a hospital gown in place of his tweed suit, his face unshaven and hair unkempt.

I venture into the room, a limited space with a curtained window. “How are you feeling, sir?”

His hand shoos away the question as a tired one. “Fine, just fine.” His impatience is ever present. “Of greater concern is how to proceed. Whilst the length of my stay is pending, there is still much work to be done.”

“But shouldn’t you…be resting?”

“After four days here mucking about, I am going positively stale.” He grumbles as if cooped up for forty. “Now,” he says, “if we are to win this war, I shall require your assistance with our schemes moving forward. More than usual, I might add.”

I realize then that my letter never reached him. Or his memory has lapsed since. I need to break the news. But how? Doing so here and now feels cruel, yet stringing him along under a false pretense would be no kinder. And that’s to say nothing of my own precarious state. Replacing me is only sensible, above all, for those in jeopardy we’re meant to help.

He pauses to point to a chair not far from his bed. “Please sit, sit.”

I remain standing. “Sir, I feel terrible if my recent failures added to your predicament in any way,” I begin.

“What? Oh my, don’t be silly.”

While I appreciate his assurance, I forge on before losing my nerve. “Having said that, I’ve come to believe my efforts are no longer worthwhile at MI9.” A mere week ago, he’d have likely celebrated the announcement. Now that he requires more assistance, I brace for a spate of frustration or disappointment, even a guilt-laden appeal.

Instead, he reclines against his pillow with a contemplative nod. “I imagine this pertains to the misfortune at the Tube.”

I should have figured he learned of it. Lenora is liable to have shared if asked about my absence.

“I daresay,” he murmurs as if musing aloud, “that must have been especially distressing, in view of your childhood experience.”

Startled, I blink at him. “How could you know of…”