Chapters (102)
- Front Cover
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Contents
- 1942
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- 1928
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- 1943
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Chapter 86
- Epilogue
- Author’s Note
- Recipes from Fenna
- Reading Group Guide
- Images from Fenna’s Journey
- Further Reading
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Back Cover
I assured Lenora I’d return by bus, releasing her to other tasks. Part of me wishes I hadn’t sent her off so soon.
The nurse, being called to assist with a patient’s outburst, directs me to continue the last few yards. I slow at the half-open door, where I’m greeted by the familiar smell of cigarette smoke. Seated in bed, unrestrained and propped against a pillow, Hutton appears to be scribbling on paper. My footfalls draw his eyes.
“At last! Miss Vos, please come in.” His lucid state knocks me for a loop. It strikes as particularly incongruent in light of his appearance, with a hospital gown in place of his tweed suit, his face unshaven and hair unkempt.
I venture into the room, a limited space with a curtained window. “How are you feeling, sir?”
His hand shoos away the question as a tired one. “Fine, just fine.” His impatience is ever present. “Of greater concern is how to proceed. Whilst the length of my stay is pending, there is still much work to be done.”
“But shouldn’t you…be resting?”
“After four days here mucking about, I am going positively stale.” He grumbles as if cooped up for forty. “Now,” he says, “if we are to win this war, I shall require your assistance with our schemes moving forward. More than usual, I might add.”
I realize then that my letter never reached him. Or his memory has lapsed since. I need to break the news. But how? Doing so here and now feels cruel, yet stringing him along under a false pretense would be no kinder. And that’s to say nothing of my own precarious state. Replacing me is only sensible, above all, for those in jeopardy we’re meant to help.
He pauses to point to a chair not far from his bed. “Please sit, sit.”
I remain standing. “Sir, I feel terrible if my recent failures added to your predicament in any way,” I begin.
“What? Oh my, don’t be silly.”
While I appreciate his assurance, I forge on before losing my nerve. “Having said that, I’ve come to believe my efforts are no longer worthwhile at MI9.” A mere week ago, he’d have likely celebrated the announcement. Now that he requires more assistance, I brace for a spate of frustration or disappointment, even a guilt-laden appeal.
Instead, he reclines against his pillow with a contemplative nod. “I imagine this pertains to the misfortune at the Tube.”
I should have figured he learned of it. Lenora is liable to have shared if asked about my absence.
“I daresay,” he murmurs as if musing aloud, “that must have been especially distressing, in view of your childhood experience.”
Startled, I blink at him. “How could you know of…”