Chapters (100)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Note to Readers
- Dedication
- Prologue
- Part One
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- Chapter Four
- Chapter Five
- Chapter Six
- Chapter Seven
- Chapter Eight
- Chapter Nine
- Chapter Ten
- Chapter Eleven
- Chapter Twelve
- Chapter Thirteen
- Part Two
- Chapter Fourteen
- Chapter Fifteen
- Chapter Sixteen
- Chapter Seventeen
- Chapter Eighteen
- Chapter Nineteen
- Chapter Twenty
- Chapter Twenty-One
- Chapter Twenty-Two
- Chapter Twenty-Three
- Chapter Twenty-Four
- Chapter Twenty-Five
- Chapter Twenty-Six
- Part Three
- Chapter Twenty-Seven
- Chapter Twenty-Eight
- Chapter Twenty-Nine
- Chapter Thirty
- Chapter Thirty-One
- Chapter Thirty-Two
- Chapter Thirty-Three
- Chapter Thirty-Four
- Chapter Thirty-Five
- Chapter Thirty-Six
- Part Four
- Chapter Thirty-Seven
- Chapter Thirty-Eight
- Chapter Thirty-Nine
- Chapter Forty
- Chapter Forty-One
- Chapter Forty-Two
- Chapter Forty-Three
- Chapter Forty-Four
- Chapter Forty-Five
- Chapter Forty-Six
- Chapter Forty-Seven
- Chapter Forty-Eight
- Chapter Forty-Nine
- Chapter Fifty
- Chapter Fifty-One
- Chapter Fifty-Two
- Chapter Fifty-Three
- Chapter Fifty-Four
- Chapter Fifty-Five
- Chapter Fifty-Six
- Chapter Fifty-Seven
- Chapter Fifty-Eight
- Chapter Fifty-Nine
- Chapter Sixty
- Chapter Sixty-One
- Chapter Sixty-Two
- Chapter Sixty-Three
- Chapter Sixty-Four
- Chapter Sixty-Five
- Chapter Sixty-Six
- Chapter Sixty-Seven
- Chapter Sixty-Eight
- Chapter Sixty-Nine
- Chapter Seventy
- Chapter Seventy-One
- Chapter Seventy-Two
- Chapter Seventy-Three
- Chapter Seventy-Four
- Chapter Seventy-Five
- Chapter Seventy-Six
- Part Five
- Chapter Seventy-Seven
- Chapter Seventy-Eight
- Chapter Seventy-Nine
- Chapter Eighty
- Part Six
- Chapter Eighty-One
- Chapter Eighty-Two
- Chapter Eighty-Three
- Author’s Note
- Book Club Questions for The Life We Almost Had
- Acknowledgements
- Extract
- Chapter One
- About the Publisher
‘A coma?’ I struggled to recall what I knew about the condition. It was a term I’d heard a hundred times before, on TV, in movies, but in that second I couldn’t define exactly what it was.
‘It’s from a Greek word, meaning state of sleep. Adam’s brain injury has resulted in the impairment of his conscious action. His brain is active but only at base level.’
‘Right. So…’ I couldn’t think of a single intelligent thing to ask. Coma was such an innocuous word but the consequences were unimaginable. I had never felt more frightened.
I glanced at Adam.
‘But he’ll wake up?’ There was a burning behind my eyes, in my throat.
‘Typically comas last between two and four weeks. The longer a patient is in one, the less chance they have of emerging or surviving.’
‘But he’ll wake up within a month, won’t he?’
‘Mrs Curtis.’ Dr Acevedo couldn’t quite meet my eyes. ‘Whether somebody recovers from a coma is largely dependent on the severity and cause. Taking into account the blow to Adam’s head, the lack of oxygen when he was underwater, the fact he hasn’t woken after sedation was withdrawn, and his test results… you need to prepare yourself. If Adam does wake, he may have some physical, intellectual or psychological impairment.’
The thought was horrifying. ‘So… even…’ I clenched my hands into fists. ‘Even if Adam wakes up, he might not be… the same?’
‘Similar experiences tell me that—’
‘Regardless of your experience, I don’t think you’ve had enough time to carry out proper treatment.’ My voice was high. Indignant. ‘There must be something you can do.’
‘I wish there was, but there’s nothing else we can do at this stage except keep Adam comfortable and nourished. If Adam does wake up, there would be further tests, of course.’
I couldn’t take any more of his pessimism. ‘If we were at home, in England, would they be doing anything differently?’
‘There’s nothing that can bring a patient out of a coma. It’s a waiting game.’
I felt I was the one who was drowning. I willed Adam to move, to sit up and rip the tubes and wires from his body. To prove this bloody doctor wrong.
But he didn’t.
‘Can Adam hear us?’
‘It’s impossible to know. Sometimes patients wake and recall conversations that were carried out by their bed. I’m sorry.’ He shrugged.
‘So what happens now?’
‘Now? I suggest you go and get some rest; you’ve had a rough night of it yourself. Unless you have any other questions?’
I wanted to ask, why did this happen to him? To me? To us? What would happen if Adam didn’t wake up in days, weeks, months?
Years.