Chapters (122)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- My Mind Meanders Like the Creek / April 1917
- My Crooked Mind / Muriel
- Our Lives and Our Fortunes / Muriel
- Apple Trees / Emma
- Should We? / Ollie
- Moral Compass / Muriel
- Fragrance of Lilacs, Sweet Scent of Skunk / May 1917
- Deep Quiet / Emma
- Socks / Muriel
- Lightning / Ollie
- Ten Days Home / Muriel
- Why Not? / Muriel
- A Greater Good / Muriel
- Someone / Muriel
- Would It Hurt? / Emma
- Right in Front of Everyone / Ollie
- Circles for the Crossing Stones / June 1917
- Would You Be Willing? / Muriel
- The Gentleman Should Always / Muriel
- Frank’s Absence / Emma
- Rocking / Muriel
- Geranium / Ollie
- Your Son and Brother / Muriel
- Conversation Through a Thick Curtain / July 1917
- Love to Everyone / Muriel
- 2:25 / Muriel
- Seeing Things / Emma
- Careful / Muriel
- Adventure / Muriel
- Frank Writes to Me / Muriel
- Blisters / Ollie
- Courage / Muriel
- Fifteen Words / Muriel
- Politics / Emma
- A Long, Low Moooooooo / Ollie
- Like a Rain-Soaked Wool Jacket / August 1917
- “Kaiser Wilson” / Muriel
- Bluebird / Emma
- In the Night, Through Towns / Ollie
- A Few Eggs, Five Peaches, All the Peas / September 1917
- Restless / Muriel
- The Tide That’s Drowning Millions / Emma
- Unbreakable / Muriel
- Names / Ollie
- Against the Dark Space / Muriel
- I Didn’t Mean / Muriel
- A Basket / Muriel
- My Shepherd, I Shall Want / Muriel
- Nest Blown from Its Tree / Emma
- Two Languages / Muriel
- Staring at Me / Ollie
- Invisible Thicket / Muriel
- Gray / Emma
- A Rock So Heavy / Muriel
- Blinding Light / Ollie
- A Bullet and a Bandage / Muriel
- Applesauce / Muriel
- White Shirt Crumpled in the Mud / October 1917
- Her Careful Signature / Muriel
- I Know Instantly / Muriel
- Blackberry Jam / Emma
- Mud / Muriel
- Changes / Ollie
- This Changes Everything / Muriel
- Take This Bread / Emma
- Phantom Pain / Ollie
- What Kind of Luck? / Muriel
- A Few Sentences Each Day / Muriel
- Daisies on a Pillowcase / Emma
- The Phone Rings / Two Short, One Long / Muriel
- Muriel Can Help / Muriel
- Crazy Ideas / Muriel
- Ollie’s Patchwork Story / Muriel
- A Sharp Yes-and-No Shoots Through Me / November 1917
- Toward—I Don’t Know What / Muriel
- Here with Grace / Ollie
- Look Deeper / Muriel
- Could I? / Muriel
- Picket Line / Muriel
- Sash Abandoned in the Snow / Muriel
- Grace Brings a Message / Emma
- We’re Winning / Muriel
- An Angel from Heaven / Muriel
- Put Grace on My Back / Ollie
- Nothing to Do with Nourishment / Muriel
- How Close Can I Go? / Emma
- One Thousand Women / Muriel
- Strangers Together / Muriel
- Probably … If / Ollie
- Tell Me About Your Trip / Muriel
- I See That, Too / Emma
- Lake of Shining Waters / Muriel
- Tipperary / Ollie
- Then What Happened? / Muriel
- Let’s Climb Cobb Hill / Emma
- In the Doorway / Muriel
- I Had My Rifle, Loaded / Ollie
- A Small, Cold Stone / Muriel
- With Our Three Arms / Emma
- Nothing in the World / Muriel
- Worth Knowing / Ollie
- A Quick Nod / Muriel
- I Can See Myself / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / December 1917
- We Have Reason to Believe / Muriel
- My Friend Miss Muriel / Muriel
- It Also Happened to Us / Ollie
- Blackberry-Apple Cobbler / Muriel
- One Hand, Drying / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / Muriel
- The Scent of Soap / Ollie
- I Step onto the Train / January 1918
- Now, in the Distance / Muriel
- Epilogue
- Notes on the Form
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Helen Frost
- About the Author
- Newsletter Sign-up
nor Ollie with us. Frank clears his throat.
Did you know, Muriel, that Ed and Howard
enlisted yesterday? I say nothing. He goes on.
John and Hal are planning to sign up next week. It’s dark—
Frank can’t see me roll my eyes. The ants go marching …
is my only comment. That childish song is still
singing itself in my head as we come home
and Frank holds out his hand to help me
from the buggy, as if I were a fine lady,
and he Sir Galahad. And then: May I
kiss you, Muriel? So gently asked,
a sweet surprise. A kiss would change
so much—I hesitate. Ordinarily, he says, I wouldn’t be
in such a hurry; you know me, I always take my time.
But—I’ve been trying to tell you—
I’m going to France. I leave next Monday.
It would sure be nice to have a girl
back home to write to—someone waiting
for me, someone to keep fighting for.
A girl. Someone. He doesn’t have time
to choose, to court, to fall in love,
and here I stand. It must seem easy, obvious.
But— No, Frank, I answer, I can’t
do that for you. I’ll be glad to write to you;
you know we all will. Grace will keep on
sending you her little drawings. We’ll miss you—
I’ll miss you—more than I can say.
I wish you wouldn’t go. I wish no one would …
Frank shakes his head. Am I confusing him?
Has he planned how this should work—get a girl,
go to war, come home a hero, and get married?
His smile fades—if I believed that one sweet kiss
could bring it back, I might
want to give him that small comfort.
But no. Frank signed up for this.
I didn’t. It is not up to me
to make it easier.
Would It Hurt? / Emma
Would It Hurt?
Emma
A kiss is not a marriage vow,
I argue with Muriel. For pity’s sake,
would it hurt you to give Frank a little dream
to tuck into his heart before he leaves? One kiss—
you wouldn’t be engaged, just something for my brother
to hang on to in the lonely times when he’s far from home.
I don’t know exactly what happened between you last night,
but from Frank’s face today, it’s not hard to guess. He might
not come back from this war! Are your ideas so set in stone
that you can’t put them aside, or at least consider another,
more gentle point of view? Believe me, Muriel, I hate this
war as much as you do, but truly, in the overall scheme
of things, would one little kiss be so hard to take?
Muriel’s only answer is, I don’t know.
Right in Front of Everyone / Ollie
Right in Front of Everyone
Ollie