Chapters (122)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- My Mind Meanders Like the Creek / April 1917
- My Crooked Mind / Muriel
- Our Lives and Our Fortunes / Muriel
- Apple Trees / Emma
- Should We? / Ollie
- Moral Compass / Muriel
- Fragrance of Lilacs, Sweet Scent of Skunk / May 1917
- Deep Quiet / Emma
- Socks / Muriel
- Lightning / Ollie
- Ten Days Home / Muriel
- Why Not? / Muriel
- A Greater Good / Muriel
- Someone / Muriel
- Would It Hurt? / Emma
- Right in Front of Everyone / Ollie
- Circles for the Crossing Stones / June 1917
- Would You Be Willing? / Muriel
- The Gentleman Should Always / Muriel
- Frank’s Absence / Emma
- Rocking / Muriel
- Geranium / Ollie
- Your Son and Brother / Muriel
- Conversation Through a Thick Curtain / July 1917
- Love to Everyone / Muriel
- 2:25 / Muriel
- Seeing Things / Emma
- Careful / Muriel
- Adventure / Muriel
- Frank Writes to Me / Muriel
- Blisters / Ollie
- Courage / Muriel
- Fifteen Words / Muriel
- Politics / Emma
- A Long, Low Moooooooo / Ollie
- Like a Rain-Soaked Wool Jacket / August 1917
- “Kaiser Wilson” / Muriel
- Bluebird / Emma
- In the Night, Through Towns / Ollie
- A Few Eggs, Five Peaches, All the Peas / September 1917
- Restless / Muriel
- The Tide That’s Drowning Millions / Emma
- Unbreakable / Muriel
- Names / Ollie
- Against the Dark Space / Muriel
- I Didn’t Mean / Muriel
- A Basket / Muriel
- My Shepherd, I Shall Want / Muriel
- Nest Blown from Its Tree / Emma
- Two Languages / Muriel
- Staring at Me / Ollie
- Invisible Thicket / Muriel
- Gray / Emma
- A Rock So Heavy / Muriel
- Blinding Light / Ollie
- A Bullet and a Bandage / Muriel
- Applesauce / Muriel
- White Shirt Crumpled in the Mud / October 1917
- Her Careful Signature / Muriel
- I Know Instantly / Muriel
- Blackberry Jam / Emma
- Mud / Muriel
- Changes / Ollie
- This Changes Everything / Muriel
- Take This Bread / Emma
- Phantom Pain / Ollie
- What Kind of Luck? / Muriel
- A Few Sentences Each Day / Muriel
- Daisies on a Pillowcase / Emma
- The Phone Rings / Two Short, One Long / Muriel
- Muriel Can Help / Muriel
- Crazy Ideas / Muriel
- Ollie’s Patchwork Story / Muriel
- A Sharp Yes-and-No Shoots Through Me / November 1917
- Toward—I Don’t Know What / Muriel
- Here with Grace / Ollie
- Look Deeper / Muriel
- Could I? / Muriel
- Picket Line / Muriel
- Sash Abandoned in the Snow / Muriel
- Grace Brings a Message / Emma
- We’re Winning / Muriel
- An Angel from Heaven / Muriel
- Put Grace on My Back / Ollie
- Nothing to Do with Nourishment / Muriel
- How Close Can I Go? / Emma
- One Thousand Women / Muriel
- Strangers Together / Muriel
- Probably … If / Ollie
- Tell Me About Your Trip / Muriel
- I See That, Too / Emma
- Lake of Shining Waters / Muriel
- Tipperary / Ollie
- Then What Happened? / Muriel
- Let’s Climb Cobb Hill / Emma
- In the Doorway / Muriel
- I Had My Rifle, Loaded / Ollie
- A Small, Cold Stone / Muriel
- With Our Three Arms / Emma
- Nothing in the World / Muriel
- Worth Knowing / Ollie
- A Quick Nod / Muriel
- I Can See Myself / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / December 1917
- We Have Reason to Believe / Muriel
- My Friend Miss Muriel / Muriel
- It Also Happened to Us / Ollie
- Blackberry-Apple Cobbler / Muriel
- One Hand, Drying / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / Muriel
- The Scent of Soap / Ollie
- I Step onto the Train / January 1918
- Now, in the Distance / Muriel
- Epilogue
- Notes on the Form
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Helen Frost
- About the Author
- Newsletter Sign-up
they are doing their best to break our spirit.
Papa reads it out loud and says, Good luck to them.
My sister’s spirit has always been unbreakable.
He studies me. You’re a lot like her, Muriel.
I’m not so sure. Papa thinks I’m strong because
I speak up for my beliefs—but as the war
gets louder all around us, I’m becoming quieter.
If I were in Washington right now, even though
I’m certain that Aunt Vera and her friends
are in the right, I’m pretty sure I’d drop the banner
in the street and slink away before
I’d let them haul me off to prison.
Names / Ollie
Names
Ollie
Dig deeper, men, they tell us.
We’ve been digging five feet deep
through mud, with blisters on our hands, and
still it’s raining and the officers command us: Keep
on digging. So we do. The walls of this hellhole are all that
stand between us and the gunfire of the enemy. I’m digging furiously,
trying to keep up with Victor, Pete, and Phil. Trying not to think about the
dying men we carried on a makeshift stretcher to the ambulance last night,
and whether they made it to the Red Cross tent. What were their names?
Ron and James, I think, and Douglas. Less than a week ago I said to
Phil, Tell me your girlfriend’s name, and I’ll remember it. If
you … you know … I’ll write her a letter. He said,
Maeve McGill, in Omaha. What about you,
kid? Emma, I thought. No one, I said.
Against the Dark Space / Muriel
Against the Dark Space
Muriel
Look, Muriel, five peas in this pod—taste them.
Saturday afternoon, Grace and I are in the garden
picking the late summer peas. The sun is warm but not
too hot, the peas are bursting from their pods,
and Grace is being good, helping with the work
without complaining. We need her to be more
grown-up than usual, more than she probably feels;
she sets her doll, Eliza Jane, at the end of each row
and as she works, she looks up constantly to show me
and Eliza Jane how many peas she’s picked
(besides the ones she’s eating). And so it
happens that it’s Grace who sees him first—
the man in uniform, turning in our lane.
I see everything at once—Grace’s curiosity,
until she sees my face shift from calm
to terror, and instantly her face reflects my own.
The man’s slow walk, slower still as he approaches.
The paper in his hand. White against his clean
blue uniform. (Against the dark space
of the letters Ollie has not written. Why?)
Yesterday, I received a short letter from Frank,
and I see that, too, like a flash of lightning
across this suddenly dark place.
Grace, I say, go inside and stay there.
Tell Mama to come out. Tell her …