Chapters (122)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- My Mind Meanders Like the Creek / April 1917
- My Crooked Mind / Muriel
- Our Lives and Our Fortunes / Muriel
- Apple Trees / Emma
- Should We? / Ollie
- Moral Compass / Muriel
- Fragrance of Lilacs, Sweet Scent of Skunk / May 1917
- Deep Quiet / Emma
- Socks / Muriel
- Lightning / Ollie
- Ten Days Home / Muriel
- Why Not? / Muriel
- A Greater Good / Muriel
- Someone / Muriel
- Would It Hurt? / Emma
- Right in Front of Everyone / Ollie
- Circles for the Crossing Stones / June 1917
- Would You Be Willing? / Muriel
- The Gentleman Should Always / Muriel
- Frank’s Absence / Emma
- Rocking / Muriel
- Geranium / Ollie
- Your Son and Brother / Muriel
- Conversation Through a Thick Curtain / July 1917
- Love to Everyone / Muriel
- 2:25 / Muriel
- Seeing Things / Emma
- Careful / Muriel
- Adventure / Muriel
- Frank Writes to Me / Muriel
- Blisters / Ollie
- Courage / Muriel
- Fifteen Words / Muriel
- Politics / Emma
- A Long, Low Moooooooo / Ollie
- Like a Rain-Soaked Wool Jacket / August 1917
- “Kaiser Wilson” / Muriel
- Bluebird / Emma
- In the Night, Through Towns / Ollie
- A Few Eggs, Five Peaches, All the Peas / September 1917
- Restless / Muriel
- The Tide That’s Drowning Millions / Emma
- Unbreakable / Muriel
- Names / Ollie
- Against the Dark Space / Muriel
- I Didn’t Mean / Muriel
- A Basket / Muriel
- My Shepherd, I Shall Want / Muriel
- Nest Blown from Its Tree / Emma
- Two Languages / Muriel
- Staring at Me / Ollie
- Invisible Thicket / Muriel
- Gray / Emma
- A Rock So Heavy / Muriel
- Blinding Light / Ollie
- A Bullet and a Bandage / Muriel
- Applesauce / Muriel
- White Shirt Crumpled in the Mud / October 1917
- Her Careful Signature / Muriel
- I Know Instantly / Muriel
- Blackberry Jam / Emma
- Mud / Muriel
- Changes / Ollie
- This Changes Everything / Muriel
- Take This Bread / Emma
- Phantom Pain / Ollie
- What Kind of Luck? / Muriel
- A Few Sentences Each Day / Muriel
- Daisies on a Pillowcase / Emma
- The Phone Rings / Two Short, One Long / Muriel
- Muriel Can Help / Muriel
- Crazy Ideas / Muriel
- Ollie’s Patchwork Story / Muriel
- A Sharp Yes-and-No Shoots Through Me / November 1917
- Toward—I Don’t Know What / Muriel
- Here with Grace / Ollie
- Look Deeper / Muriel
- Could I? / Muriel
- Picket Line / Muriel
- Sash Abandoned in the Snow / Muriel
- Grace Brings a Message / Emma
- We’re Winning / Muriel
- An Angel from Heaven / Muriel
- Put Grace on My Back / Ollie
- Nothing to Do with Nourishment / Muriel
- How Close Can I Go? / Emma
- One Thousand Women / Muriel
- Strangers Together / Muriel
- Probably … If / Ollie
- Tell Me About Your Trip / Muriel
- I See That, Too / Emma
- Lake of Shining Waters / Muriel
- Tipperary / Ollie
- Then What Happened? / Muriel
- Let’s Climb Cobb Hill / Emma
- In the Doorway / Muriel
- I Had My Rifle, Loaded / Ollie
- A Small, Cold Stone / Muriel
- With Our Three Arms / Emma
- Nothing in the World / Muriel
- Worth Knowing / Ollie
- A Quick Nod / Muriel
- I Can See Myself / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / December 1917
- We Have Reason to Believe / Muriel
- My Friend Miss Muriel / Muriel
- It Also Happened to Us / Ollie
- Blackberry-Apple Cobbler / Muriel
- One Hand, Drying / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / Muriel
- The Scent of Soap / Ollie
- I Step onto the Train / January 1918
- Now, in the Distance / Muriel
- Epilogue
- Notes on the Form
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Helen Frost
- About the Author
- Newsletter Sign-up
even seem to realize Frank isn’t here. Muriel’s father makes a joke
to mine about turning us into boys while Frank is away.
Even as we figure out who will do what, we
hold his place open, however we can.
Rocking / Muriel
Rocking
Muriel
The hand that rocks the cradle is the hand that
rules the world, Mama says, by which she means
I should be content to learn the women’s work
that she and Mrs. Norman do so smoothly
anyone would think there’s nothing to it—
until a day like today when I almost burn
the house down making eleven pints
of strawberry jam—how should I know
paraffin can catch fire so easily?
I ignore my burning hand and rush to the creek
for a bucket of cold water—only to discover that water
fans the flames instead of putting out this kind of fire.
I’m never going to get married! Never! I burst out.
Mama tries to quiet me: No one’s talking
about marriage. Calm down, Muriel—all’s well
that ends well. It’s a good thing it happened
on a Saturday when I’m at home. She thinks
I can be soothed and smothered,
like the fire she extinguishes so quickly,
so competently, it doesn’t even burn the blanket
she puts over it—where did Mama learn to do that?
She smiles her sweetest, most infuriating smile
as she wraps a bandage around my blistered hand.
Women influence the world in quiet ways,
she says. We keep peace in our families, and
raise our children to be decent, honest people.
Decent. Honest. (Frank)
But what good does that do, I argue, if your
decent, honest children are sent off to fight
and maybe die in a war someone else
started, and all the girls and mothers
in America have no way of stopping?
She holds my bandaged hand, pushes
a strand of hair from my flushed face.
I don’t know the answer to that question,
she finally admits. She studies me:
Maybe you won’t rock a cradle, Muriel.
Some women seem to prefer to rock the boat.
She speaks gently, thoughtfully; there’s truth
in what she sees and says. But her words sting
like yellow jackets flying from a nest I don’t
know is there until I step right into it.
Geranium / Ollie
Geranium
Ollie
Will Emma write to me? I can’t ask
because I’m not saying goodbye to anyone.
They’ll all know, by this time tomorrow, that I’ve
left home to catch the train to Kansas for basic training.
What will Pa do when he finds out I enlisted, underage? I
think it’s better not to tell him. Grace asks, Why are you
being so nice to me now, Ollie? I’ve been spending all my
free time finishing her playhouse. Emma hung new
pink curtains in the windows. Now she holds the