Chapters (122)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- My Mind Meanders Like the Creek / April 1917
- My Crooked Mind / Muriel
- Our Lives and Our Fortunes / Muriel
- Apple Trees / Emma
- Should We? / Ollie
- Moral Compass / Muriel
- Fragrance of Lilacs, Sweet Scent of Skunk / May 1917
- Deep Quiet / Emma
- Socks / Muriel
- Lightning / Ollie
- Ten Days Home / Muriel
- Why Not? / Muriel
- A Greater Good / Muriel
- Someone / Muriel
- Would It Hurt? / Emma
- Right in Front of Everyone / Ollie
- Circles for the Crossing Stones / June 1917
- Would You Be Willing? / Muriel
- The Gentleman Should Always / Muriel
- Frank’s Absence / Emma
- Rocking / Muriel
- Geranium / Ollie
- Your Son and Brother / Muriel
- Conversation Through a Thick Curtain / July 1917
- Love to Everyone / Muriel
- 2:25 / Muriel
- Seeing Things / Emma
- Careful / Muriel
- Adventure / Muriel
- Frank Writes to Me / Muriel
- Blisters / Ollie
- Courage / Muriel
- Fifteen Words / Muriel
- Politics / Emma
- A Long, Low Moooooooo / Ollie
- Like a Rain-Soaked Wool Jacket / August 1917
- “Kaiser Wilson” / Muriel
- Bluebird / Emma
- In the Night, Through Towns / Ollie
- A Few Eggs, Five Peaches, All the Peas / September 1917
- Restless / Muriel
- The Tide That’s Drowning Millions / Emma
- Unbreakable / Muriel
- Names / Ollie
- Against the Dark Space / Muriel
- I Didn’t Mean / Muriel
- A Basket / Muriel
- My Shepherd, I Shall Want / Muriel
- Nest Blown from Its Tree / Emma
- Two Languages / Muriel
- Staring at Me / Ollie
- Invisible Thicket / Muriel
- Gray / Emma
- A Rock So Heavy / Muriel
- Blinding Light / Ollie
- A Bullet and a Bandage / Muriel
- Applesauce / Muriel
- White Shirt Crumpled in the Mud / October 1917
- Her Careful Signature / Muriel
- I Know Instantly / Muriel
- Blackberry Jam / Emma
- Mud / Muriel
- Changes / Ollie
- This Changes Everything / Muriel
- Take This Bread / Emma
- Phantom Pain / Ollie
- What Kind of Luck? / Muriel
- A Few Sentences Each Day / Muriel
- Daisies on a Pillowcase / Emma
- The Phone Rings / Two Short, One Long / Muriel
- Muriel Can Help / Muriel
- Crazy Ideas / Muriel
- Ollie’s Patchwork Story / Muriel
- A Sharp Yes-and-No Shoots Through Me / November 1917
- Toward—I Don’t Know What / Muriel
- Here with Grace / Ollie
- Look Deeper / Muriel
- Could I? / Muriel
- Picket Line / Muriel
- Sash Abandoned in the Snow / Muriel
- Grace Brings a Message / Emma
- We’re Winning / Muriel
- An Angel from Heaven / Muriel
- Put Grace on My Back / Ollie
- Nothing to Do with Nourishment / Muriel
- How Close Can I Go? / Emma
- One Thousand Women / Muriel
- Strangers Together / Muriel
- Probably … If / Ollie
- Tell Me About Your Trip / Muriel
- I See That, Too / Emma
- Lake of Shining Waters / Muriel
- Tipperary / Ollie
- Then What Happened? / Muriel
- Let’s Climb Cobb Hill / Emma
- In the Doorway / Muriel
- I Had My Rifle, Loaded / Ollie
- A Small, Cold Stone / Muriel
- With Our Three Arms / Emma
- Nothing in the World / Muriel
- Worth Knowing / Ollie
- A Quick Nod / Muriel
- I Can See Myself / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / December 1917
- We Have Reason to Believe / Muriel
- My Friend Miss Muriel / Muriel
- It Also Happened to Us / Ollie
- Blackberry-Apple Cobbler / Muriel
- One Hand, Drying / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / Muriel
- The Scent of Soap / Ollie
- I Step onto the Train / January 1918
- Now, in the Distance / Muriel
- Epilogue
- Notes on the Form
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Helen Frost
- About the Author
- Newsletter Sign-up
little girl, then an old man in tattered clothes
who looks so hungry I give him the apple
I still have from home—Bless you, miss, he says.
I smile, but almost immediately a woman
carrying a baby holds out her hand,
and I don’t have another apple. People
who look like they have plenty of food and money
walk past and no one begs from them. Why is everyone
asking me? I ask Ruby. She studies me: You have
a kind face, she answers. Outside the station,
we get into an electric streetcar that pulls us along
the tracks, without horses. The streets are so busy—
hundreds of buggies, motorcars, bicycles,
young men and women walking arm in arm.
I’m dizzy from looking. We pass a row of mansions
with grand doorways and white pillars;
then gradually things change—smaller houses,
dirty streets. Just two more blocks,
Ruby says. It’s hard to describe what I see.
This neighborhood … it looks … so … I pause.
Poor? Ruby suggests. I nod, a little embarrassed.
Look deeper, she says. (A rat runs by.
Something smells bad. Mama would call the children
“little ragamuffins.”) A woman comes out of a brick
building, surrounded by four small children; they wave
and smile at us—at Ruby, really, but I’m included, too.
This, Ruby tells me, is the settlement house
where I live and teach kindergarten.
I’ve heard about settlement houses: people,
mostly women, live in a neighborhood where
there is work to be done—cleaning up the streets,
taking care of children, building playgrounds,
helping new immigrants get settled in America.
We stop here long enough for you to fresh up,
then, if you like, I take you over to
the White House. (For half a second, I could be
one of ten thousand tourists, and she my
gracious guide.) I thought you will
be interested, she goes on, in meeting
your Aunt Vera’s friends—the women
on the picket line. A sharp yes-and-no
shoots through me. Yes, I want to meet
these women—I want to find out for myself
if they are dangerous, misguided, unpatriotic.
And, no, I’m not prepared to stand with Ruby
and the others in the White House picket line,
where I could be arrested. I’m here to take
Aunt Vera home, not to join her and her friends—
however brave they are—in prison.
Could I? / Muriel
Could I?
Muriel
As Ruby and I walk to the White House,
I ask her how she met Aunt Vera. I meet her
in Chicago, she tells me, just after I come
from Denmark. I have never been in so large a city.
I sleep the first night in Union Station,
alone and very frighten. A rough-looking man
come up to me next morning. “You need
a place to stay?” he ask. “Come with me.”
I know not enough English to understand
what he is suggesting. I try to ignore him,