Chapters (122)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- My Mind Meanders Like the Creek / April 1917
- My Crooked Mind / Muriel
- Our Lives and Our Fortunes / Muriel
- Apple Trees / Emma
- Should We? / Ollie
- Moral Compass / Muriel
- Fragrance of Lilacs, Sweet Scent of Skunk / May 1917
- Deep Quiet / Emma
- Socks / Muriel
- Lightning / Ollie
- Ten Days Home / Muriel
- Why Not? / Muriel
- A Greater Good / Muriel
- Someone / Muriel
- Would It Hurt? / Emma
- Right in Front of Everyone / Ollie
- Circles for the Crossing Stones / June 1917
- Would You Be Willing? / Muriel
- The Gentleman Should Always / Muriel
- Frank’s Absence / Emma
- Rocking / Muriel
- Geranium / Ollie
- Your Son and Brother / Muriel
- Conversation Through a Thick Curtain / July 1917
- Love to Everyone / Muriel
- 2:25 / Muriel
- Seeing Things / Emma
- Careful / Muriel
- Adventure / Muriel
- Frank Writes to Me / Muriel
- Blisters / Ollie
- Courage / Muriel
- Fifteen Words / Muriel
- Politics / Emma
- A Long, Low Moooooooo / Ollie
- Like a Rain-Soaked Wool Jacket / August 1917
- “Kaiser Wilson” / Muriel
- Bluebird / Emma
- In the Night, Through Towns / Ollie
- A Few Eggs, Five Peaches, All the Peas / September 1917
- Restless / Muriel
- The Tide That’s Drowning Millions / Emma
- Unbreakable / Muriel
- Names / Ollie
- Against the Dark Space / Muriel
- I Didn’t Mean / Muriel
- A Basket / Muriel
- My Shepherd, I Shall Want / Muriel
- Nest Blown from Its Tree / Emma
- Two Languages / Muriel
- Staring at Me / Ollie
- Invisible Thicket / Muriel
- Gray / Emma
- A Rock So Heavy / Muriel
- Blinding Light / Ollie
- A Bullet and a Bandage / Muriel
- Applesauce / Muriel
- White Shirt Crumpled in the Mud / October 1917
- Her Careful Signature / Muriel
- I Know Instantly / Muriel
- Blackberry Jam / Emma
- Mud / Muriel
- Changes / Ollie
- This Changes Everything / Muriel
- Take This Bread / Emma
- Phantom Pain / Ollie
- What Kind of Luck? / Muriel
- A Few Sentences Each Day / Muriel
- Daisies on a Pillowcase / Emma
- The Phone Rings / Two Short, One Long / Muriel
- Muriel Can Help / Muriel
- Crazy Ideas / Muriel
- Ollie’s Patchwork Story / Muriel
- A Sharp Yes-and-No Shoots Through Me / November 1917
- Toward—I Don’t Know What / Muriel
- Here with Grace / Ollie
- Look Deeper / Muriel
- Could I? / Muriel
- Picket Line / Muriel
- Sash Abandoned in the Snow / Muriel
- Grace Brings a Message / Emma
- We’re Winning / Muriel
- An Angel from Heaven / Muriel
- Put Grace on My Back / Ollie
- Nothing to Do with Nourishment / Muriel
- How Close Can I Go? / Emma
- One Thousand Women / Muriel
- Strangers Together / Muriel
- Probably … If / Ollie
- Tell Me About Your Trip / Muriel
- I See That, Too / Emma
- Lake of Shining Waters / Muriel
- Tipperary / Ollie
- Then What Happened? / Muriel
- Let’s Climb Cobb Hill / Emma
- In the Doorway / Muriel
- I Had My Rifle, Loaded / Ollie
- A Small, Cold Stone / Muriel
- With Our Three Arms / Emma
- Nothing in the World / Muriel
- Worth Knowing / Ollie
- A Quick Nod / Muriel
- I Can See Myself / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / December 1917
- We Have Reason to Believe / Muriel
- My Friend Miss Muriel / Muriel
- It Also Happened to Us / Ollie
- Blackberry-Apple Cobbler / Muriel
- One Hand, Drying / Emma
- Bluebird Stitched in Such Detail / Muriel
- The Scent of Soap / Ollie
- I Step onto the Train / January 1918
- Now, in the Distance / Muriel
- Epilogue
- Notes on the Form
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Helen Frost
- About the Author
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declaring war are playing on his mind.
When anything “must be made safe,” Frank
and Ollie always volunteer. Now, with Frank’s life
on the line, Ollie tries to help my family. Our fence has
been broken for a month; no doubt he started fixing it today
because it keeps his hands occupied as he tries to find a way
to think about what this war will mean, for all of us. He’s as
quiet as the fence itself: measure the wire, open the knife,
cut the wire, close the knife, quick twist, hard yank—
yes, the fence will hold. Above us, the kind
of sky that greets a thousand bluebirds.
So sweet a day. So tough.
Socks / Muriel
Socks
Muriel
Thirty-seven years ago in Denmark,
two sisters married two brothers. It’s
like an anthem, the way Papa tells it: To
this day, your Danish relatives would claim you
if you walked into the old family home.
But when Mama tells the story, she’s seeing
Ollie with the Normans’ daughter, Emma—
and me with Emma’s older brother, Frank,
pairing us up like she rolls up pairs of socks,
that little sigh of satisfaction when they come out even—
or “close enough,” if there’s one black sock,
one navy blue, left over at the end.
Emma is my closest friend; Frank and Ollie
are like brothers. Mrs. Norman comes here
with her sewing almost every afternoon,
or Mother goes to their house—they seem to think
they know us better than we know ourselves.
But I don’t see myself going down the road they
see me on, leading to a clean white farmhouse
not too far from here, me out in the yard, my
apron pockets full of corn I’m scattering
for biddy hens. I love Emma like a sister, and
I’m as scared as anyone that Frank will be
sent overseas to fight this war—I’m delighted
that he’s coming home on leave next week—
but slow down, Mother: I have no
intention of becoming the Mrs. Norman of your
imaginary future. Who I am remains to be seen—
and I alone intend to be the one to see it.
Lightning / Ollie
Lightning
Ollie
Gray sky, all-day rain,
thunder coming closer. Lightning
struck the barn in just this kind of storm
last summer. It took us the entire fall and winter
to rebuild the part of the hayloft that burned in the fire
that night. Our work is sound—Pa and I work well together,
though I wonder: Will he do as well without me? Ollie, let me
show you something! Grace runs up. I’ve told her we can use the
scrap wood for a playhouse; now she’s found a place to build it.
You said you would, Ollie. Come on—look! If I work hard and
fast I might get it done in my spare time. (Maybe, with