Chapters (116)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- PART 1
- 1. Angst
- 2. Angst and the Journey
- 3. A Girl Is Mildly Traumatized
- 4. A Girl Is Off to Colorado, Apparently
- 5. Angst and Socializing
- 6. A Girl Is Here for the Introspection
- 7. Angst and the Shower Girl
- 8.???
- 9. Angst and Fishing
- 10. A Girl Is Sampling Sisterhood
- 11. Angst and Swimming
- 12. Is a Girl Alive?
- 13. Angst and All-Consuming Confusion
- 14. A Girl Is Clammy
- 15. Angst and Older Sisters
- 16. A Girl Has Been Caught Off Guard
- 17. Angst and Flashbacks
- 18. A Girl Is Trying to Reconnect
- 19. Angst and Reprocessing
- 20. A Girl Is a Little Disoriented
- 21. Angst and Hypothetical Miracles
- 22. A Girl Is Not Doing That
- 23. Angst and Fire Choir
- 24. A Girl Is Rapt with Attention
- 25. Angst and Metal
- PART 2
- 26. A Girl Is Playing the Long Game
- 27. Angst and Hikes
- 28. A Girl Thinks This Pitch Is Going Well
- 29. Angst and Saying Yes
- 30. A Girl Is on Her Ass
- 31. Angst and Cellular Device Access
- 32. Angst and Goodbyes
- 33. A Girl Is on a Plane
- 34. Angst and the Middle Seat
- 35. A Girl Doesn’t Understand Your Compliment
- 36. Angst and LAX
- 37. A Girl Is Going to Implode if Siri Keeps Ignoring Her Calls
- 38. A Girl Has Never Been to Her Mom’s House
- 39. Angst and Salons
- 40. A Girl Appreciates a Donut
- 41. Angst and Jamie’s Room
- 42. Angst and Dad
- 43. A Girl Can Rock a Catfish
- 44. Angst and Rom-Coms
- 45. A Girl Needs Adventure
- 46. Angst and Improv Practice
- 47. A Girl Fancies Zarar
- 48. Angst and Empathy
- 49. A Girl Is Questioning Everything
- 50. Angst and Pizza Hangs
- 51. A Girl Is Taking All the Calls
- 52. Angst and Good/Bad News
- 53. Angst and Preparation
- 54. A Girl Needs to Do Better
- 55. A Girl Is on Time for Once
- 56. Angst and Emails
- 57. A Girl Gets Feedback
- 58. Angst and Expectations
- 59. A Girl Is on the Train Again
- 60. Angst and a Barbecue
- 61. A Girl Does Family Dinner
- 62. A Girl Is Braving Another Open Mic
- 63. Angst and Ice Cream
- 64. A Girl Needs a Break
- 65. Angst and Vulnerability
- 66. A Girl Is at a Rooftop Soiree
- 67. Angst and Ideas
- 68. A Girl Is Conflicted
- 69. Angst and Storytime
- 70. A Girl Is Inferior
- 71. Angst and Preparations
- 72. A Girl Meets a Family
- 73. A Girl Has Lost Control
- 74. A Girl Is a Hot Mess
- PART 3
- 75. Angst and Road Trips
- 76. A Girl Is Running on Fumes
- 77. Angst and Recall
- 78. A Girl Is Having Trouble with This
- 79. Angst and Resolve
- 80. Angst and Confrontation
- 81. A Girl Is Hanging with Her Family!
- 82. A Girl’s Head Is Spinning
- 83. A Girl Ruined Everything
- 84. Angst and Intervention
- 85. A Girl Is Not Sure How to Proceed
- 86. Angst and Support
- 87. A Girl Has Some Work to Do
- 88. Angst and Progress
- 89. A Girl Isn’t Tired
- 90. Angst and Birthdays
- 91. A Girl Is Voluntarily Here
- 92. A Girl Wants to Make It Better
- 93. Angst and Letting Go
- 94. A Girl Works a Meeting
- 95. Angst and Wine
- 96. A Girl Is Enjoying Herself
- 97. Angst and Bridges
- 98. A Girl Is Going for It
- 99. Angst and Los Angeles
- 100. Angst and Hope
- 101. A Girl Has One More Letter
- 102. A Girl Is Trying Again
- 103. Angst and Pride
- 104. A Girl Is Freaking Flying
- Epilogue
- JAMIE
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Christine Riccio
- About the Author
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“Tell me your plan,” I demand as I carefully step off the trunk.
“Well,” Jamie says, as the path becomes more uneven, “I’m gonna need to confront Mom about all this imaginary friend crap before I can enjoy … anything really. It’s kind of eating me alive.”
I narrow my eyes. You wouldn’t know by looking at Jamie that she’s being “eaten alive.” I’ve yet to see her shed a single tear about all this.
The path’s becoming increasingly rocky, so I have to be extra deliberate with my steps. “Um,” I finally respond after three minutes of silence. “Okay, you can call her—”
“Yeah, I need to have that Mom confrontation in person,” she says.
Is her plan to come home with me?
Jamie pulls ahead. I quicken my pace, trying to keep up with her. “Okay, fine, so what? You want to come back with me and then we’ll leave for California after you talk to her? That’s going to cost us more money. If we did that, I would wait outside because—”
Jamie pivots, and this time I’m so close, I crash right into her and wobble over the rocks. Her hand flashes out and snags my elbow, steadying me. “It’s cute that you think making Dad pay for some sister road trip will be a satisfying form of payback.” She pokes me and starts walking again. “But I’ll tell you right now. He’d love to be able to throw some money at you and get us on his side. And you’re forgetting about Mom. She gets off scot-free in that equation.”
“I’m not going to talk to her for a while. That’s not nothing,” I say.
We step over a muddy creek. The dirt squishes around my white sneakers.
“Oh, the horror.” Jamie eyes me wearily. “Didn’t you insinuate that she’s never around? How much do you talk in the first place?”
“We still live in the same house,” I grumble.
I hate that our reunion has brought these horrible truths about our parents into sharp focus. The closer I look at what they’ve done, the worse it gets.
“Funding a road trip isn’t going to inconvenience either of our parents.” Jamie twirls Jonas like a giant baton.
I stop walking and cross my arms. “What is your plan, Jamie? Spit it out already.”
She stops a few feet down the trail with a hand on her hip. “Okay, but please promise to hold all judgment till after I finish the pitch.”
I roll my eyes. “I’ll try.”
There’s a bunch of fallen trees and brush along the edge of the path up ahead. I shadow Jamie as she stalks toward a giant log, plants Jonas in the ground, and takes a seat on it. I stop in front of her, a few feet away.
“Okay, tell me,” I prompt when she doesn’t immediately begin.