Chapters (116)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- PART 1
- 1. Angst
- 2. Angst and the Journey
- 3. A Girl Is Mildly Traumatized
- 4. A Girl Is Off to Colorado, Apparently
- 5. Angst and Socializing
- 6. A Girl Is Here for the Introspection
- 7. Angst and the Shower Girl
- 8.???
- 9. Angst and Fishing
- 10. A Girl Is Sampling Sisterhood
- 11. Angst and Swimming
- 12. Is a Girl Alive?
- 13. Angst and All-Consuming Confusion
- 14. A Girl Is Clammy
- 15. Angst and Older Sisters
- 16. A Girl Has Been Caught Off Guard
- 17. Angst and Flashbacks
- 18. A Girl Is Trying to Reconnect
- 19. Angst and Reprocessing
- 20. A Girl Is a Little Disoriented
- 21. Angst and Hypothetical Miracles
- 22. A Girl Is Not Doing That
- 23. Angst and Fire Choir
- 24. A Girl Is Rapt with Attention
- 25. Angst and Metal
- PART 2
- 26. A Girl Is Playing the Long Game
- 27. Angst and Hikes
- 28. A Girl Thinks This Pitch Is Going Well
- 29. Angst and Saying Yes
- 30. A Girl Is on Her Ass
- 31. Angst and Cellular Device Access
- 32. Angst and Goodbyes
- 33. A Girl Is on a Plane
- 34. Angst and the Middle Seat
- 35. A Girl Doesn’t Understand Your Compliment
- 36. Angst and LAX
- 37. A Girl Is Going to Implode if Siri Keeps Ignoring Her Calls
- 38. A Girl Has Never Been to Her Mom’s House
- 39. Angst and Salons
- 40. A Girl Appreciates a Donut
- 41. Angst and Jamie’s Room
- 42. Angst and Dad
- 43. A Girl Can Rock a Catfish
- 44. Angst and Rom-Coms
- 45. A Girl Needs Adventure
- 46. Angst and Improv Practice
- 47. A Girl Fancies Zarar
- 48. Angst and Empathy
- 49. A Girl Is Questioning Everything
- 50. Angst and Pizza Hangs
- 51. A Girl Is Taking All the Calls
- 52. Angst and Good/Bad News
- 53. Angst and Preparation
- 54. A Girl Needs to Do Better
- 55. A Girl Is on Time for Once
- 56. Angst and Emails
- 57. A Girl Gets Feedback
- 58. Angst and Expectations
- 59. A Girl Is on the Train Again
- 60. Angst and a Barbecue
- 61. A Girl Does Family Dinner
- 62. A Girl Is Braving Another Open Mic
- 63. Angst and Ice Cream
- 64. A Girl Needs a Break
- 65. Angst and Vulnerability
- 66. A Girl Is at a Rooftop Soiree
- 67. Angst and Ideas
- 68. A Girl Is Conflicted
- 69. Angst and Storytime
- 70. A Girl Is Inferior
- 71. Angst and Preparations
- 72. A Girl Meets a Family
- 73. A Girl Has Lost Control
- 74. A Girl Is a Hot Mess
- PART 3
- 75. Angst and Road Trips
- 76. A Girl Is Running on Fumes
- 77. Angst and Recall
- 78. A Girl Is Having Trouble with This
- 79. Angst and Resolve
- 80. Angst and Confrontation
- 81. A Girl Is Hanging with Her Family!
- 82. A Girl’s Head Is Spinning
- 83. A Girl Ruined Everything
- 84. Angst and Intervention
- 85. A Girl Is Not Sure How to Proceed
- 86. Angst and Support
- 87. A Girl Has Some Work to Do
- 88. Angst and Progress
- 89. A Girl Isn’t Tired
- 90. Angst and Birthdays
- 91. A Girl Is Voluntarily Here
- 92. A Girl Wants to Make It Better
- 93. Angst and Letting Go
- 94. A Girl Works a Meeting
- 95. Angst and Wine
- 96. A Girl Is Enjoying Herself
- 97. Angst and Bridges
- 98. A Girl Is Going for It
- 99. Angst and Los Angeles
- 100. Angst and Hope
- 101. A Girl Has One More Letter
- 102. A Girl Is Trying Again
- 103. Angst and Pride
- 104. A Girl Is Freaking Flying
- Epilogue
- JAMIE
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Christine Riccio
- About the Author
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I nod in agreement. “I mean, it’s pretty perfect.”
“It is.” I follow Z as he casually backs up toward the walk-in closet. “And it has a great closet.”
And, we’re in the closet.
He smolders at me.
I cock a brow. “We’re not going to get this place if they catch us in here.”
He tilts his head. “What are you, the closet police?”
I poke his chest and he grabs my hand, pressing it to his heart.
“I am a bad influence on you,” I chide.
His lopsided grin kicks up. “We’ve made it this far. I really think the universe is on our side.”
We have made it pretty far. I’ve thrown my fair share of shit at our relationship, and we’re still here. Together. And thrilled about it.
I push the door closed.
We gaze at each other for a beat before I grab his perfect chin and crush his lips with mine.
We’ve had a number of spontaneous sexual escapades over the past two years. They’re always my favorite. Every time we’re together, I feel like a human supernova.
We’re chaotically de-clothing as he breaks away. “Marry me, canoe thief?”
“Are you shitting me?” I yank off his belt. “This again?”
I hold tight to the bar hanging along the border of the little room, catching my breath as he peels off my fitted flare overalls.
“I’m not shitting you, James,” Zarar breathes as he works his way from the floor back up to my face.
I grin as he meets my eyes. “Damnit, Z, no. We’re moving in together. Give it a second.”
This is his second proposal. The first was on our one-year anniversary.
He laughs as I pull him against me. “Why am I not surprised?” he murmurs against my lips.
“I fucking love you,” I whisper into his face.
We’re so pleased with ourselves when we slip out five minutes later without reprimand. Z pulls out his iPhone and FaceTimes Siri as we leave the place with an application.
“What’s the verdict?” she says as soon as she picks up the phone. She’s in Dawn’s kitchen. Those two are smitten, and they haven’t even started dating yet.
Z laughs. “She said no. You owe me fifty bucks!”
I gawk at him as he points the phone in my direction.
“Excrement! Jamie!” Siri complains.
I loose a disbelieving huff. “Excuse me, gluteus maximus trench, you bet on yes?”
I have plans to propose myself, when I’m good and ready.
A girl has to draw this out so our love story is epic enough for Future Zarar to woo his damn grandkids.
JAMIE
DR. DONYA WENDELL
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