Chapters (116)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- PART 1
- 1. Angst
- 2. Angst and the Journey
- 3. A Girl Is Mildly Traumatized
- 4. A Girl Is Off to Colorado, Apparently
- 5. Angst and Socializing
- 6. A Girl Is Here for the Introspection
- 7. Angst and the Shower Girl
- 8.???
- 9. Angst and Fishing
- 10. A Girl Is Sampling Sisterhood
- 11. Angst and Swimming
- 12. Is a Girl Alive?
- 13. Angst and All-Consuming Confusion
- 14. A Girl Is Clammy
- 15. Angst and Older Sisters
- 16. A Girl Has Been Caught Off Guard
- 17. Angst and Flashbacks
- 18. A Girl Is Trying to Reconnect
- 19. Angst and Reprocessing
- 20. A Girl Is a Little Disoriented
- 21. Angst and Hypothetical Miracles
- 22. A Girl Is Not Doing That
- 23. Angst and Fire Choir
- 24. A Girl Is Rapt with Attention
- 25. Angst and Metal
- PART 2
- 26. A Girl Is Playing the Long Game
- 27. Angst and Hikes
- 28. A Girl Thinks This Pitch Is Going Well
- 29. Angst and Saying Yes
- 30. A Girl Is on Her Ass
- 31. Angst and Cellular Device Access
- 32. Angst and Goodbyes
- 33. A Girl Is on a Plane
- 34. Angst and the Middle Seat
- 35. A Girl Doesn’t Understand Your Compliment
- 36. Angst and LAX
- 37. A Girl Is Going to Implode if Siri Keeps Ignoring Her Calls
- 38. A Girl Has Never Been to Her Mom’s House
- 39. Angst and Salons
- 40. A Girl Appreciates a Donut
- 41. Angst and Jamie’s Room
- 42. Angst and Dad
- 43. A Girl Can Rock a Catfish
- 44. Angst and Rom-Coms
- 45. A Girl Needs Adventure
- 46. Angst and Improv Practice
- 47. A Girl Fancies Zarar
- 48. Angst and Empathy
- 49. A Girl Is Questioning Everything
- 50. Angst and Pizza Hangs
- 51. A Girl Is Taking All the Calls
- 52. Angst and Good/Bad News
- 53. Angst and Preparation
- 54. A Girl Needs to Do Better
- 55. A Girl Is on Time for Once
- 56. Angst and Emails
- 57. A Girl Gets Feedback
- 58. Angst and Expectations
- 59. A Girl Is on the Train Again
- 60. Angst and a Barbecue
- 61. A Girl Does Family Dinner
- 62. A Girl Is Braving Another Open Mic
- 63. Angst and Ice Cream
- 64. A Girl Needs a Break
- 65. Angst and Vulnerability
- 66. A Girl Is at a Rooftop Soiree
- 67. Angst and Ideas
- 68. A Girl Is Conflicted
- 69. Angst and Storytime
- 70. A Girl Is Inferior
- 71. Angst and Preparations
- 72. A Girl Meets a Family
- 73. A Girl Has Lost Control
- 74. A Girl Is a Hot Mess
- PART 3
- 75. Angst and Road Trips
- 76. A Girl Is Running on Fumes
- 77. Angst and Recall
- 78. A Girl Is Having Trouble with This
- 79. Angst and Resolve
- 80. Angst and Confrontation
- 81. A Girl Is Hanging with Her Family!
- 82. A Girl’s Head Is Spinning
- 83. A Girl Ruined Everything
- 84. Angst and Intervention
- 85. A Girl Is Not Sure How to Proceed
- 86. Angst and Support
- 87. A Girl Has Some Work to Do
- 88. Angst and Progress
- 89. A Girl Isn’t Tired
- 90. Angst and Birthdays
- 91. A Girl Is Voluntarily Here
- 92. A Girl Wants to Make It Better
- 93. Angst and Letting Go
- 94. A Girl Works a Meeting
- 95. Angst and Wine
- 96. A Girl Is Enjoying Herself
- 97. Angst and Bridges
- 98. A Girl Is Going for It
- 99. Angst and Los Angeles
- 100. Angst and Hope
- 101. A Girl Has One More Letter
- 102. A Girl Is Trying Again
- 103. Angst and Pride
- 104. A Girl Is Freaking Flying
- Epilogue
- JAMIE
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Christine Riccio
- About the Author
- Newsletter Sign-up
I nod and follow her into the house.
“It’s nice to see you again so soon!” She smiles. “You don’t owe me an anything. I wasn’t going to tell Jamie. Your dad came around to tell me what happened. I’m sorry she found out the way she did.” She grabs a water bottle out of the refrigerator.
“Well, um, I wanted to tell you I think you’re great, and I … I have an internship lined up in New York, but I’d love to keep in touch, no strings attached or anything. If you want to keep in touch, that is. I think I plan on coming back here eventually. I don’t think I want to live in New York forever.”
Dawn puts down the water she’s swigging from. “Really?”
“Really.”
“How’s Jamie?”
“Much better. She agreed to come to therapy with me once a week. I’ve been going like every other day.” I shake my head. “TMI, sorry.”
Dawn shakes her head. “Siri, if your therapist is helping you and you’re going through the shit, why not see her more than once a week.”
I smile weakly.
“So, Jamie’s not freaking out about us anymore?” she asks.
I shake my head. “She’s working through it. But I kinda don’t think I’m ready for anything relationship-y right now. I have to find my footing again in all the other aspects of my life.” I huff a sad laugh.
Dawn nods.
“Can I show you something?” she says softly.
I blow out a relieved breath. “Of course.”
“Don’t make fun of me, okay?”
“I would never.”
Dawn leads me into her dreamy room and opens the top drawer of her nightstand. She pulls out a snow globe, her hands clasped over it.
“So, after you left, I was looking through the pictures we took and … um, well, I did a thing.”
She takes her hand off the snow globe and puts it in my outstretched palm. Our ice cream–covered faces are pressed cheek to cheek in the picture at the center. I’m not Jamie in it anymore … I’m me.
Dawn spins the globe in my hand. The stand that holds the picture allows for another on the back. In the back picture, we’re kissing.
I suck in a sharp breath. I didn’t even know she snapped that. “You made us a real snow globe.”
She smiles shyly. “I know it’s cheesy and stupid. I didn’t think you’d be back so soon, and I didn’t know how seriously you wanted to take the idea of never seeing each other again. But I don’t have many perfect days. I wanted to make sure I could never lose this one.”
I look up at her with watery eyes. “This is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.”