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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

“Where’s Sarah?” She had meant to ask about Silas, but Sarah’s name came out instead. She didn’t correct herself.

“I don’t—” he said, taking a step back. “I don’t know.”

“What’s going on between you two, huh?” Lily asked, tilting her body with one hand on her hip.

Silas said he loved her hip bones.

“Nothing,” he said, but she could sense a ripple in his voice, and she wasn’t going to let go of it. Bonding with Philip was one of her main goals for the weekend, and she was just drunk enough to try.

“Come on, you can talk to me,” she said, leaning in. “I’m practically part of the family.”

Philip raised his eyebrows at her.

“Come on, walk me to the firepit and we can talk. I think Silas went down that way.”

“I think I’m just gonna—”

“Come on,” Lily said, pulling on his arm with her whole weight. Philip glanced back at the woods and exhaled, shaking his head.

“No, you know what? Come on this way. We’ll have a drink and talk about it.” He took her by the elbow and nodded toward the house. “We don’t need to go back there.”

Lily beamed and looped her arm in his. She couldn’t wait to tell Silas how she’d won over his brother. No one else had, as far as she knew.

“Lead the way,” she said.

—

BY THE TIME THEY were settled on the two-person porch swing, Lily with a vodka Sprite (“Diet, please,” she said three times to Philip’s back) and Philip holding a beer, it was fully dark.

“So, you like her, right? Sarah?” Lily asked, watching the shadowy shapes of her friends on the beach. As far as she could tell, none of them were Silas. She swallowed the thought away with a sip.

“Yeah, I guess. I mean, she’s cool. Cooler than a lot of girls I know,” he said.

“Not cooler than me, though, right?” Lily asked, pushing his knee with her foot. He rocked the swing under them just enough to feel like a boat in calm waters.

“ ’Course not.”

Lily smiled into her drink.

“Well, have you told her?”

Philip sighed, glancing once more toward the woods. “Kind of, yeah. I kind of just did, actually.”

“No way!” Lily exclaimed. “What did she say?”

“Well, I’m sitting here with you, aren’t I?”

If it had been Terrance speaking, it would’ve sounded insulting, but from Philip it didn’t. It sounded like friendship, or the beginning, at least. Lily leaned forward and put her hand on Philip’s large shoulder.

“Oh, Phil. She doesn’t deserve you.”

“I don’t know about—”