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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

“No,” Lily interrupted, putting down her drink. It was important that he hear this, she thought. It was the most important thing he would ever hear; she was sure of it. “You are the best guy. I mean that. The. Best. Guy.”

Philip smiled just a little before he inched backward out of Lily’s grip.

“That’s nice of you.”

“No, no, no,” Lily repeated. “You’re not hearing me. You’re seriously the best. Sarah . . . there are a million girls like Sarah. You could do so much better. If you just let me, I could set—”

“No, thanks,” Philip interrupted. But he looked more comfortable than he had a few minutes before, and a few minutes before that. She was getting through to him, Lily thought with a tingle of pride. They were bonding.

“Fine,” Lily said, and took the final sip of her drink. “But can I ask—why her?”

She couldn’t see his face anymore; the dark had crept up the porch, and the dim lights from the living room only outlined the shape of him, like he was an anonymous tipster in a Mafia documentary.

“She’s smart,” he said finally. “Not just in school, though. She’s smart-funny. My dad always says you can tell the quality of a person’s brain from their humor, and she is the proof.” He shifted on the swing. “And she seems to think I’m smart too. And funny. She gets me in a different way than other people. But it doesn’t matter. She’s not into me.” He reached for his beer and tilted his head back. “She’s into someone else.”

Those last words hit Lily’s skin like electricity. As she had the whole weekend, whenever faced with the shadow of a thought she didn’t want, she reached for her empty Solo cup and then for his beer, taking it right from his hands. He let her.

“You know what I think?” she asked when she had finished it. The alcohol made her vision swim, but it helped settle the unasked question that sparked and hissed in her chest. “I think if you like her so much, you should go get her. Screw this other person. You are one of a kind, Mr. Harrison. You deserve to get the girl. Don’t give up. There’s nothing sexier than a guy who knows what he wants and is willing to fight for it.” She patted his knee definitively. “That’s what I think.”

Philip pitched forward, his elbows landing on his knees.

“Thanks, Lily,” he said, after a minute of nothing but the roar of crickets over a pop hit’s bass beat. “You know, I’m glad you’re practically part of the family.”