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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

“ ‘The Culvers,’ ” she read.

The house wasn’t a trailer, in that it had a foundation that locked into the earth. But the shape was the same: a brick home without any brick. Paneling, meant to look like wood but warped and collapsed in places real wood never would be, wasn’t organic enough to rot. A screen drooped in its window.

“What do you want?” a man said from the doorway. I took him in, unwashed, uncombed, and bloodshot. Just our kind of guy.

“Mr. Culver?”

“Who’s asking?”

“Can we come inside? We got a message from you.”

This guy would be thanking us soon enough, full-on snot-in-the-beard-crying kind of thanking us, just like the rest of them. But for now, we were the same as people selling knives or cookies or God. Useless at best.

He nodded and stood aside.

It took a second for my eyes to adjust to the darkness inside. It was that red kind of darkness—like when the sun is so bright you have to close your eyes, but you can still see the burn. The kind of darkness that comes not from a lack of light but rather in rebellion against it. But the light bled in anyway, rushing through the cracks between the window frames and the pieces of cardboard held there with duct tape, seeping into the piles that cluttered the tattered couch and around the circular table. It was the same light that I had relished so deeply many times before, but now it felt like a predator, claws and tongues curling under the door.

Cal elbowed me as I rubbed my eyes.

“I know I haven’t memorized the whole book,” she whispered. “But this has to be breaking some kind of rule.”

I squinted in the gloom, my hand on my tablet. That’s when I saw the piles of clutter weren’t piles at all. They were people. The tiny living room was damn near bursting with men.

“All right, boys,” Culver said. “Let’s make ourselves a deal.”

SILAS

ornament

SILAS COULDN’T REMEMBER THE last time he saw Sean read anything besides the Internet, and certainly not for pleasure. But there he sat on the porch, watching the girls as they dashed for the water, an open book on his lap. Sean had always been a quiet kid, like Philip. But unlike a lot of the quiet ones, Sean was never much of a reader. He didn’t like escaping into other people’s prefabricated worlds, preferring to build his own. As a child, he spent countless hours sprawled on the floor of his bedroom, lining plastic soldiers along his bed frame, making war sounds with his mouth. One time, Silas opened Sean’s door and was met with a downpour of green men from a pillowcase rigged above his head.

“Guerrilla warfare,” Sean had said, grinning.