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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

Silas jumped, let go of Ruth, and hopped to his feet a little too quickly, his vision still syrupy from the whiskey.

“Hiya, kiddo,” he said, wincing. He hadn’t called Sean “kiddo” in a very long time.

“What is going on here?”

“Ruth was just feeling a little down.”

Sean looked warily from Silas to Ruth, and then out at the water. Silas walked up to his son and put his hands on his shoulders. Sean was even taller than he had been when the summer started; Silas was sure of it. He was sturdy, his shoulders broad. As the dead cleared their fog from this space, he could see him more plainly. Yes, Sean looked like Philip. But he also looked like him.

“How about you go get Mickey, and we can all head on home?”

“What are you talking about, Dad?” Sean asked, staring out over his shoulder. “Mickey went swimming with Ruth.”

Silas turned around to face Ruth, ready for her explanation. She was exactly where he had left her, huddled up on herself, hands gripping her knees. The moonshine made her white shoulder blades rise from the dark of her towel like a creature from the deep. The kind of being that lived a whole lifetime without ever being seen. But then, as if in contradiction, a bright beam cut through the woods behind her and caught her perfectly in its center. Silas and Sean both shaded their eyes as they looked toward the source, but Ruth stayed perfectly still.

“Hiya, chickadee,” a man’s voice said. “Is it done?”

Silas turned back to Ruth just in time to see her give one small but certain nod.

LILY

ornament

ONE TIME, AS A child, Lily went diving for quarters in her uncle’s pool. She remembered the thick white sunscreen her mother slopped onto her face like mayonnaise, and the way it stung her eyes. But it didn’t matter. She was the youngest of her cousins and the only girl, and she was going to hold her breath the longest, even if it killed her.

Lily dove under the water and shot to the bottom, a submarine with a mission. She opened her eyes, ignored the burn, and reached through the fog of her blond hair for a glittering coin, managing to touch it just enough to send it scuttling deeper. But Lily didn’t panic. She used her fingers to pull herself along the porous pool bottom like a frog, the fabric of her bathing suit catching on the rough floor just enough so she could feel it resist as it let her go. When she finally grabbed the quarter, her heartbeat pounded in her ears. She closed her eyes and shot to the surface, her victorious hand outstretched. But when she came up and inhaled, she inhaled water. Her head was underneath something solid, heavy.

It was not what she had expected.