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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

“Then just pretend you don’t,” Ruth said.

Silas couldn’t see it, but he could sense something happening between two of the three of them, the two who came from him. Some kind of exchange built into their shared blood or memory. He could feel the pull of it, like his cells were being tugged.

“No can do,” Sean said, after a minute. “I’m not letting you guys go there alone. I like Cody and Josh; they’re cool to play video games with or whatever. But I wouldn’t trust them alone with my sister.” He paused. “They can have you, though.”

“Sean!” Mickey said, followed by a slapping sound.

“How about a compromise?” Ruth asked sweetly. “We can all go. I’m sure the boys would rather Sean come than none of us. How’s that?”

“Great, I love being pity-invited to my friends’ house so they can try to defile—”

“So it’s settled, then.”

Silas heard the tapping of nails on a phone screen and the swoosh of a sent message.

“Don’t be such a prude, Sean. Mickey is her own person, you know. You’re not her dad, or her husband. If she wants to get down and dirty with—”

“Gross, gross, gross,” Sean said, pushing back until Silas could almost touch the hairs on his head through the slats of the wall.

“I don’t even,” Mickey said quietly, hardly defiant.

Silas felt his own pulse in his throat. Mickey was barely fourteen. To think those arms, that face . . . he shook his head to stop it.

“Ooh, Mick, did you bring down that Cosmo? The one with the best summer hairstyles? I think that half-up braid would look sooo good on you tonight.”

Mickey jumped up, seemingly as uncomfortable with this conversation as everyone else. Everyone but Ruth.

“I’ll go get it!”

Silas froze in the shadow as Mickey skipped past the boathouse door, her legs still long and spindly the way they had been her whole life. Prone to scabs that she picked until her sheets were mottled with blood, and covered in white-blond down like the softest kind of flightless bird.

She missed him by inches.

PEYOTE

ornament

“YOU CAN’T THINK I’M stupid enough to hide your results in my desk, even if I did figure out how to lock it.”

“Yeah, how did you—” I started, but then I stopped. “No, we’re still talking about your thing.”

I managed to get to my feet and face the hallway, where her wet footsteps left dark patches in the carpet that I knew would never fully dry. It’s all carpet everywhere in Hell.

I listened as she pulled something off a hanger, heard the jagged slide of fabric against damp, hot skin. The snap of elastic.

“Okay, all dressed,” she said. “Your innocence remains intact.”