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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

When I’d finally put Cal’s file down, I went to the kitchen sink and turned both knobs all the way, until water spilled lazily from the faucet over my fingers. How many times in how many millennia had I put my lips to this very faucet, or the plastic mouth of a bottle, driven by heat or hangover or the ancient body memory of thirst? How much of myself, exactly, did I lose per sip?

On the Second Floor, the one kindness we ever showed the people on the belt was during break, the whistle blowing sporadically and infrequently and welcomed by all. It was then that we would hold the bases of their skulls in our palms—not just the bone but the whole thing, skin and hair and everything intact—and pour slowly into their mouths cold, clean water.

Our only relief was also our erasure. It was brilliant and cruel and completely on brand.

But with the way time moves here, or the lack thereof, maybe the General was wrong. Maybe it isn’t a trick, a method of war.

Maybe the water is Hell’s clumsy attempt at mercy.

But what then, if rejected? If a person on the belt refused water, what would our creative supervisors on the Third Floor come up with in retaliation? How would we twist their rebellion into our weapon, for as long as it took?

You know the answer as well as I do. As well as Cal and her blistered skin.

We would make them burn.

SILAS

ornament

SILAS HAD JUST DECIDED to give up his search when he heard his son’s voice.

“I don’t know what your deal is, but Mickey isn’t like you.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“You know what it means. I’m glad you guys are friends or whatever; it seems to make her happy. But she’s not a Barbie you can play with until you get bored.”

Sean pushed off the wall, freeing a gap through which Silas could see the shoulders of both of them outlined by blinding sun.

Ruth pulled herself upright.

“I can’t believe you think that.”

It was the quietest sentence Silas had heard her say all summer.

“Look, I’m not trying to be an asshole. You’re—you’re cool, you know? It’s just . . . she’s my little sister. And I don’t want her doing things because you said she should.”

Silas felt proud of his son. He had been acting like he didn’t care about any of them for so long, Silas had begun to believe he really didn’t.

“I can’t believe that’s who you think I am,” Ruth said. “I thought we were all getting along, you know? I thought I was connecting with you, teasing-like. But if you just think I’m some kind of bad-influence whore—”