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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

“If you had been reasonable, we wouldn’t be here. But here we are.” She hit the emergency brake again, and the elevator shrieked into motion. “We need Trey, and we need him now.”

“I refuse to work with that asshole, and you should too. He’s not like us, Cal. He’s so stupid, he’s dangerous.”

“I didn’t realize I had been promoted to your category.”

“I haven’t told anyone but you about this plan,” I whispered. “And I won’t. I know this might make me an idiot, but I trust you.”

Cal took one step toward me then, followed by another, and another, until she was close enough that I could see each one of her eyelashes. The elevator was small, but the space we took up inside it was so much smaller.

She traced the seam of my belt with her fingertips, and rubbed the leather against itself like she was starting the slowest of fires.

“Cal,” I said, swallowing.

“I trust you too. And I want to help you, Pey. I do. But this thing we’re doing?” She paused long enough for her bottom lip to go between her teeth before pulling it, slowly, free. “It only works if the trust goes both ways.”

The elevator door dinged and, just like that, she was back on her side.

“Let’s talk to Trey,” she said, rubbing my stolen paper between her fingertips, the universal sign for currency, “and we can all get what we want.”

SILAS

ornament

SILAS LUGGED ANOTHER BAG of rocks from the trunk. He could get the car only so far into the woods, but it was worth it, he thought as he wiped dirt and sweat from his forehead. The place had been a robbed grave for too long.

The first time he built the firepit was with Philip. He could almost see the way his brother wrinkled his nose in concentration as he selected the best of the rocks that Silas pried from the dirt with his grubby little hands and delivered, arms outstretched. This was going to be their place, Philip said with each discarded option. Just theirs. So it had to be perfect. Silas dug until he couldn’t feel his fingers that day and cried when the sun went down.

He tore open the bag of rocks, ignoring the nagging feeling of inadequacy for buying them from Home Depot. He was an adult now. He couldn’t spend a whole day pulling rocks like old teeth from the soil. He used his hands to dig into the middle of the firepit, sifting through wet leaves and ash until he hit aluminum, which he pulled out and threw over his shoulder into an open garbage bag. And then again. And again, and again. It was like meditating, he thought. At the very least, he was communing with nature.