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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

This was back in the days when Silas could freely open his son’s door. Although, as Silas thought about it, he realized maybe Sean had always wanted privacy, but it was only recently that he learned the vocabulary. He seemed to walk around inside something invisible, everything just a few inches from his skin. Even his clothes were baggy enough that Silas rarely saw the shape of his son’s body. That seemed to be the point.

Silas wiped off his hands the dirt from the vegetable garden, where he grew enough for a couple of highly celebrated salads each summer; then he shaded his eyes and walked up the hill.

“What are you reading?”

Sean tensed at his father’s voice, as if he hadn’t seen him coming the whole way across the lawn.

“Just something I found on the shelf.”

“Is it good?”

Sean shrugged, his own language. Silas sat down next to his son and extended his legs, hoping if he looked comfortable, he might somehow become comfortable.

“So,” he asked, “what do you think of Ruth?”

Sean had been willingly around his sister more in the past week than Silas had seen in years, and it wasn’t about Mickey. Maybe having a crush would be a good thing for Sean, Silas thought. Get him out of his head.

“She’s fine,” Sean muttered.

“I think she seems pretty great,” Silas said, smiling sidelong. “She’s cute too.”

“Gross, Dad.”

“She is! Don’t you think?”

Sean’s face turned red, which made Silas smile more brightly. He sank back into the lounger.

“You totally think so.”

“Whatever.”

“You should talk to her,” Silas went on. “Ask her questions. Girls like it when guys ask questions.”

“Can we not talk about this?”

Silas jostled his son’s shoulder. “The opposite of that.”

Sean shifted on the polyester cushion. “I don’t even understand why she’s friends with Mickey. She’s older, and she’s popular. It’s weird.”

Silas put his hand on his son’s neck and gave him a shake. His neck was wet with sweat, the collar of his T-shirt damp.

“Maybe the Harrisons are more hip than you thought.”

Sean shrugged out from his grip.

“How about you go join them for a swim before dinner? I bet the water feels nice.”

“I’m set,” he said. He got up before Silas could say anything more, and the screen door slammed shut behind him.

“Good talk!” Silas yelled, his hands flat and wide on his knees.