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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

“Hello there, son,” I said as I approached, my hands out. Of course, bullets couldn’t touch me. But I was going for Trustworthy.

“Who the fuck are you?” Jake yelled. He was tall and pale, sweating in his black hoodie. He still looked like a kid. Not in the way his young hostages did—the ABCs way, the I-know-you-are-but-what-am-I? way—but he held his gun sideways like in the movies and wasn’t much older than Sean.

“You prayed, didn’t you? You asked for help? Well, here I am.”

I kept my hands out and did a slow spin.

“That’s impossible,” he said, but his voice wavered.

“How else do you think I got in here? Got past the police? Who are gathering, by the way.”

I closed my eyes and felt through the wall into the white-tiled bathroom. I could see them clinging to one another in the old claw-foot bathtub, the cloudy-looking shower curtain pulled across them. The room smelled like urine, and I could see the boy’s pants were wet.

“Fuck, fuck this—fuck!” Jake yelled, and he shoved the muzzle of his gun deep into the fleshy underside of his jaw, pale like the soft part of a turtle. If he offed himself before I got to him, we would lose the whole deal.

“Jake,” I said, taking another step. “You don’t have to do that. I can fix this for you. That’s why I’m here.”

Jake slammed his fist into the wall. I could feel Rebecca’s pulse surge through the door as if I held her neon heart in my fist.

“If she hadn’t been such a fucking cunt—”

“Rebecca,” I said. “Your girlfriend. You were about to celebrate one year together.”

“How did you know that?” Jake snapped, pointing his gun at me. I fought the urge to roll my eyes. We didn’t have time for this.

“I told you—I am here to help you. I know everything, Jake.”

“So you know she fucking dumped me when I said I wanted to marry her? When I said the realest thing I’ve ever said to anyone, when I tore my goddamn heart out for her—she fucking dumped me, because she wants to ‘work it out’ with her rich ex. To be more stable for the kids, she said. Fuck that. She’s nothing but a gold-digging whore.”

From behind the bathroom door, a whimper pierced the silence.

“I know, Jake. But you didn’t want it to go like this, did you?” I took another step toward him. “Let me fix it.”

“Fix it how?” he asked, studying me.

“I can undo all of it. I can rewind time, Jake. And then I can make Rebecca love you, marry you, whatever you want.”

“That’s impossible. You’re a fucking cop.”