Chapters (64)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Prologue
- Five Years Later
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-one
- Twenty-two
- Twenty-three
- Twenty-four
- Twenty-five
- Twenty-six
- Twenty-seven
- Twenty-eight
- Twenty-nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-one
- Thirty-two
- Thirty-three
- Thirty-four
- Thirty-five
- Thirty-six
- Thirty-seven
- Thirty-eight
- Thirty-nine
- Forty
- Forty-one
- Forty-two
- Forty-three
- Forty-four
- Forty-five
- Forty-six
- Forty-seven
- Forty-eight
- Forty-nine
- Fifty
- Fifty-one
- Fifty-two
- Fifty-three
- Fifty-four
- Fifty-five
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgements
- Canelo Crime
- About the Author
- Also by Sheila Bugler
‘We get it,’ Jake said. ‘Course we do. But you’ve got to accept that people are going to be talking about it, Clodagh. I mean, no one knows how Gary got away with flying that plane while under the influence. I reckon it was vodka. Most other drinks, they make your breath stink. Not vodka, though.’ He winked at Felicity. ‘Might have to start drinking it myself the next time you have a go at me for drinking.’
‘Let’s talk about something else,’ Adam said. ‘Felicity, why don’t you tell us how your audition for Love Hotel went?’
As Felicity prattled on about some pointless reality TV show she’d auditioned for, Clodagh’s mind travelled back to the day of the crash. The memory was clearer now. Just a tiny sliver of a bigger picture, but it was a start. Standing at the sink in the Ladies’ toilet, splashing cold water on her hot face. Cheeks burning because she was angry. The sound of a toilet flushing, then a cubicle door opening. And nothing after that.
Her glass was empty. She stood up to get more water, ignoring Jake’s request to bring out another bottle of wine. While she refilled her glass, she focused on that memory, searching the dark empty spaces of her brain for what had come before. At first, it was the same as always. No matter how hard she tried, the memories wouldn’t come. And then, just as she was about to give up, it happened. A single memory. On its own, it didn’t make much sense but she already knew it was important.
Being single is your choice.
Vivienne’s voice, dismissive and mocking, the way she could be when someone dared to criticise her.
You’ve chosen the moral high ground instead of happiness.
‘Clodagh?’
She might have remembered more, but Adam had come into the kitchen, his voice dragging her back from the past.
‘Give me a second,’ she said. But it was too late. The rest of the memory wasn’t there. All she had was that moment: Vivienne’s mocking voice and the rage inside her, ready to explode.
Thirty
‘This thing is becoming bigger than we’d anticipated, wouldn’t you say?’
Sharon took a swig of coffee and continued speaking without waiting for Ade or Rachel to answer. Which Rachel, certainly, had no intention of doing. She’d worked with Sharon Spalding long enough to know that her boss only ever asked questions that were rhetorical. Because when you went through life believing you knew more about everything than everyone else around you, there was never a need for any other sorts of questions.