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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

Sarah stretched out next to her and threw her hair, damaged but still enviable in its volume, over the edge of the float into the lake. “I live dangerously enough on my own two feet.”

Lily snorted. “Did you practice that line in the mirror?”

“How else would I have nailed it so flawlessly?”

That time, Lily laughed for real.

“So, Silas Harrison, huh? How’s that going?”

Whatever fragile camaraderie there was between them was lost the minute Lily heard Sarah say his name. Like it was at home in her mouth.

“That’s definitely none of your business.”

“I think it’s cute,” she said. “You two make sense, you know? Like Happy Days. I’m sure it’s really nice.”

“It’s a whole lot more than nice.”

“I’m sure. You seem . . . wild.” Sarah grinned and closed her eyes against the sun.

“What about you and Dan? Or was it Kevin? Or wait . . . no. I think it was the whole baseball team,” Lily said as she sat up, using her perfect twenty-five-inch waist to block Sarah’s sun.

“Basketball, actually.”

“Why are you even here?”

“I was invited.”

“By Phil? Don’t get too big a head from his little crush; he would stick it in anyone who would have him. You’re just his best bet.”

“Well, aren’t I lucky!” Sarah said, but Lily could hear a little crack in her witty armor, and it was enough.

“You didn’t know he wants to fuck you? That’s why he’s here this weekend; usually he’d stay home. But he wants . . . whatever this is,” Lily said, sliding one finger under the string tie of Sarah’s bikini bottom and letting it snap, like she was emptying a rattrap.

“Phil and I are just friends.”

“That’s not what he tells the boys,” Lily said, leaning back on her hands. “Apparently, you get real frisky with just a little tequila . . . Is that true?” She went sweet on the upward inflection, in that poison way teenage girls do.

Sarah’s eyes fluttered, but she kept them closed. “Phil wouldn’t say that.”

“I guess we’ll see when they get back from the liquor store.”

Lily stood and stretched, showing the whole length of her body. She was long from start to finish, a ray of light straight from the sky.

“Later,” she said, and she dove into the water with barely a splash.

—

WHEN LILY REACHED THE clearing that afternoon, she stood at the lake’s edge and plucked the petals off all of the poppies but one, throwing each into the water. No matter how far she tried to throw them, they gathered back at her feet.

“I’m sorry, Sarah.”