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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

“I wish I didn’t have to go,” Mickey said. She loved going to her family’s New Hampshire house. She looked forward to it all year. But here she was, saying she wished she could stay home and meaning it.

Silas walked past her door and caught her eye.

“Your mom is going to be so happy to see you’re packing,” he said, pausing in the doorway. He had a beer in his hand.

“Go away, Dad.”

“Don’t be rude, Mick,” Ruth said. “Hi, Mr. Harrison!”

He had told her to call him Silas from the beginning, but she never did.

“What are you up to this summer, Ruth? In the market for new parents? We might be looking to adopt,” Silas said, smirking. He leaned against the doorframe and took a sip.

Ruth shrugged. “I’m not doing anything. It’s so cool that you can go back to your childhood home every year! Mickey says it’s beautiful. I’d love to see it sometime.”

“Your family doesn’t go anywhere?”

Mickey blushed. Ruth’s mom didn’t have a second home like the Harrisons, or the families of most of the kids from their school. Mickey wanted to interrupt him; she wanted to do a dance to distract them both. She was embarrassed because she thought Ruth might be. Embarrassment can be contagious like that. But Ruth wasn’t. She just shrugged.

“We don’t have anywhere to go,” she said. Ruth had a way of doing that: saying the truth. Mickey’s family wasn’t used to it. The blunt truth, Mickey noticed, raised the Harrisons’ collective heartbeat. Mickey loved it.

Silas swirled his beer.

“You should come with us! What do you say, Mick? Want to bring a friend this year?”

Mickey’s heart surged with a mix of excitement, terror, and jealousy. She had noticed that happening lately: all of her feelings had at least two other feelings right on top of them. It was, unsurprisingly, confusing. Mickey looked at her father, and then at Ruth.

“That would be great!” Mickey said, mostly telling the truth.

“Are you sure?” Ruth asked her, not looking at Silas. The way Ruth did that, asked Mickey like she alone was the authority, made Mickey want her to come something vicious. She nodded.

“I would love to, Mr. Harrison!” Ruth said. She hopped off Mickey’s bed and threw her arms around Silas’s neck, so fast it spilled a bit of his beer. She let go, and he stepped back, flushed.

“Well, you ask your parents, and we’ll go from there,” he said, smiling and close to breathless.

“It’s just my mom,” Ruth said. “She’ll be fine with it.”

“Okay, well, just ask to be sure. Then Lily and I will give her a call.”