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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. BEFORE
  5. PEYOTE
  6. PART I
  7. PEYOTE
  8. LILY
  9. PEYOTE
  10. MICKEY
  11. PEYOTE
  12. MICKEY
  13. PEYOTE
  14. SILAS
  15. PEYOTE
  16. MICKEY
  17. LILY
  18. PEYOTE
  19. MICKEY
  20. PEYOTE
  21. LILY
  22. PEYOTE
  23. MICKEY
  24. PEYOTE
  25. PART II
  26. LILY
  27. PEYOTE
  28. SILAS
  29. PEYOTE
  30. MICKEY
  31. PEYOTE
  32. MICKEY
  33. LILY
  34. PEYOTE
  35. SILAS
  36. PEYOTE
  37. LILY
  38. PEYOTE
  39. MICKEY
  40. PEYOTE
  41. LILY
  42. MICKEY
  43. PEYOTE
  44. SILAS
  45. PEYOTE
  46. MICKEY
  47. PEYOTE
  48. LILY
  49. PEYOTE
  50. SILAS
  51. PEYOTE
  52. MICKEY
  53. PEYOTE
  54. SILAS
  55. PEYOTE
  56. LILY
  57. PEYOTE
  58. SILAS
  59. PEYOTE
  60. LILY
  61. PEYOTE
  62. MICKEY
  63. LILY
  64. PEYOTE
  65. PART III
  66. LILY
  67. PEYOTE
  68. LILY
  69. PEYOTE
  70. LILY
  71. PEYOTE
  72. MICKEY
  73. PEYOTE
  74. LILY
  75. PEYOTE
  76. MICKEY
  77. PEYOTE
  78. SILAS
  79. PEYOTE
  80. MICKEY
  81. PEYOTE
  82. LILY
  83. PEYOTE
  84. LILY
  85. PEYOTE
  86. MICKEY
  87. PEYOTE
  88. SILAS
  89. PEYOTE
  90. SILAS
  91. LILY
  92. SILAS
  93. PHILIP
  94. PEYOTE
  95. LILY
  96. PEYOTE
  97. LILY
  98. PEYOTE
  99. AFTER
  100. PEYOTE
  101. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

“Give me that.”

Lily handed Silas the gun, and he steadied himself. He squeezed, and a can exploded with a burst of sound.

“Gotcha!”

“Beginner’s luck,” Lily said. “Give it back.”

Silas shrugged and handed the rifle over to Lily before leaning back against the tree.

“Remember how good my mom was?”

Lily laughed again as she lined up her next shot. “I think she must’ve been a spy before she had you.”

“And Philip was so bad.”

“Well, he was always better with bigger machines.” Lily pushed her breath out and squeezed, and the can on the left ricocheted off the closest tree.

“Bam!”

“But be honest—were you aiming for that one?” Silas asked, kicking her ankle with his foot.

“Double or nothing,” she said as she squared off again.

“We didn’t actually bet anything!”

Lily squinted before exhaling and hitting two more cans in a row. But then she felt her phone buzz in her pocket, and she faltered. The third bullet hit the tree on the right, spraying bark. She rested the gun against her leg and pulled out her phone.

It was a message from Gavin.

. . . anything?

And then another.

I miss you.

Lily swiped out of the message instantly but felt its effect everywhere. She squeezed her eyes shut, suddenly embarrassed by the cans and the rifle resting against her leg—the whole scene.

Gavin did not like guns.

“You know,” she said, loosening her hair, “that’s probably enough friendly fire for me.”

“Are you serious? You were just heating up!”

“I know,” Lily said. “That’s why I’m going to go up and make another drink, to cool down.” She hung the rifle on the ancient hook embedded in the tree closest to her. “You’ll put this away when you’re done?”

Silas sighed. “I’ll take care of it.”

Lily came to a stop in front of him. There was a sprig of pine stuck in his hair.

From the moment Lily saw Silas at Sweeney High’s freshman football tryouts, her body changed for him. It was changing anyway, but he caught her eye and became the end goal amid all that cellular chaos. A blueprint dropped into her previously mismanaged construction site.

Become the girl who can get Silas Harrison.

So that’s what she did. But her young logic missed one important thing: being his meant nothing if he wasn’t also hers.

Between the smell of the grass in the summer air and the power of the rifle in her hands and the way he looked right then, his face, softened by the haze of late-day sun and gun smoke, made her think that if she looked at him for too long, she might crack, might fall back into him. And then, as it always was with them, he would see her as won and lose interest, and she would be left open and wanting.