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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for
  3. Also by David Bell
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. PART I
  7. CHAPTER ONE
  8. CHAPTER TWO
  9. CHAPTER THREE
  10. CHAPTER FOUR
  11. CHAPTER FIVE
  12. CHAPTER SIX
  13. CHAPTER SEVEN
  14. CHAPTER EIGHT
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. CHAPTER TWELVE
  19. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  20. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  22. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  23. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  24. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  25. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  38. PART II
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  64. PART III
  65. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  66. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  67. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  74. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  75. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  76. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  77. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  84. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  85. PART IV
  86. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  88. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  94. EPILOGUE
  95. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  96. Readers Guide
  97. About the Author
  98. What’s next onyour reading list?

Once or twice, the curtains would still be open, the lights on. And I’d see them inside, watching TV or talking. And I’d take Grendel up and down the street a few times, comforted just by being close to them. I never knew if they saw me. If they looked out and saw the guy walking his dog aimlessly up and down the street. I assumed they never noticed me because everything was so good inside that house. . . .

But maybe they saw me and thought I was a nut.

I should have known something wasn’t quite right with them. But I was so consumed by my assumptions about them, so taken by who and what I thought they were, I didn’t take serious notice of the subtle changes in that house.

I should have noticed that I saw them together less. That frequently when I walked by, one or the other of them would be home, but not both. I should have noticed that the household projects that were formerly performed together were suddenly being performed separately. If I’d been closer to the house—and I never went closer than the sidewalk and so didn’t see any real detail—I might have seen strained looks.

Instead the crack in their marriage shocked me.

On an early September night that was unseasonably hot, I walked Grendel up their street. The leaves hadn’t come close to turning, but the kids were back in school. Real autumn loomed on the horizon.

It had been a few days since I’d seen anything in the couple’s house. The blinds had been drawn, everything dark. I thought they might have gone away on a trip, and my mind conjured images of them in a tropical paradise, sipping drinks by the pool, snorkeling in blue water.

But the house was lit up. Every window glowed with bright light.

And the front door stood wide open. Not just the storm door, but the screen door as well.

As I approached, I heard them before I saw them. Voices raised, one male, one female. I thought someone had turned their TV up too loud. Or a car approached with the radio blasting. But the voices were not singing, the dialogue unscripted.

I saw them through the dining room window, facing each other. He spoke forcefully, poking his finger near her chest as he did. He moved closer and closer. And she refused to yield. She stood her ground, shaking her head. She gave it right back, poking with her own finger. He let her get it out, let her go on for a while.