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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for
  3. Also by David Bell
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. PART I
  7. CHAPTER ONE
  8. CHAPTER TWO
  9. CHAPTER THREE
  10. CHAPTER FOUR
  11. CHAPTER FIVE
  12. CHAPTER SIX
  13. CHAPTER SEVEN
  14. CHAPTER EIGHT
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. CHAPTER TWELVE
  19. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  20. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  22. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  23. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  24. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  25. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  38. PART II
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  64. PART III
  65. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  66. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  67. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  74. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  75. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  76. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  77. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  84. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  85. PART IV
  86. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  88. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  94. EPILOGUE
  95. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  96. Readers Guide
  97. About the Author
  98. What’s next onyour reading list?

I swing my right leg against his left and knock him over. He falls to the floor, the baton still in his hand.

I push myself to my feet with my good arm. Grendel yelps and barks.

I back away toward the door as Preston rights himself. He stands and comes toward me, while I continue to back up. My arm hangs limply at my side.

“It’s over, Preston,” I say again.

“Not for me,” he says.

He charges, baton raised.

I reach the door, try to pull it open.

But the door swings inward before I can.

Someone is here, coming into the house. Several people.

When Preston sees them, he stops his charge. His blazing eyes focus, and he stands in the center of the room, his cheeks red, the baton raised over his head like a torch.

It’s Kelly returning with their daughters. They all look at him with horror, coming face-to-face with a part of him they’ve never seen.

I look past them to the yard. I see flashing lights strobing in the dark.

The police are here. They’re coming through the door.

“Daddy . . . ?”

Then the police are inside, and they wrestle Preston to the ground. Face-first. It takes four of them to get the cuffs on him while his wife and children watch.

I collapse to the floor, my crushed arm cradled against my chest.

Grendel comes to my side and licks my face.

It is well and truly over.

EPILOGUE

ONE YEAR LATER

I wake up early in the morning. Like I always do.

To be honest, my life now isn’t much different from what it was in Gatewood. Before I admitted the book wasn’t mine. Before I lost my job and tenure and everything.

Now I wake up early in a different state where I teach part-time at a different university. It’s colder here. And farther north, closer to where my sister lives. My arm is completely healed. And I don’t have tenure or any real job security. But who does, right?

I take Grendel for a walk around the neighborhood. He moves slower than ever now. Maybe because it’s cold. Maybe because he’s slowing down, as we all are. I tell myself he might have a few good years left. I hope so.

When I return to my small apartment, I brew coffee and feed the dog. And when the coffee’s ready, I sit down to write. I try to write a few hundred words before I have to go to campus to teach that day’s classes. Some days I don’t make it. But most I do.

I’m keeping my expectations low and reasonable.

For someone who hasn’t finished anything in a long time, that seems like a good choice.

I open the file I’ve been working on and start to go.

And what kind of story am I writing now?