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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for
  3. Also by David Bell
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. PART I
  7. CHAPTER ONE
  8. CHAPTER TWO
  9. CHAPTER THREE
  10. CHAPTER FOUR
  11. CHAPTER FIVE
  12. CHAPTER SIX
  13. CHAPTER SEVEN
  14. CHAPTER EIGHT
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. CHAPTER TWELVE
  19. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  20. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  22. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  23. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  24. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  25. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  38. PART II
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  64. PART III
  65. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  66. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  67. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  74. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  75. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  76. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  77. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  84. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  85. PART IV
  86. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  88. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  94. EPILOGUE
  95. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  96. Readers Guide
  97. About the Author
  98. What’s next onyour reading list?

I saw the blond woman the second time I walked Grendel through the neighborhood by the park.

It was a warm night in late June. Lightning bugs were just appearing. Everything blooming.

Grendel trudged along two steps ahead of me, the leash slack between us. He wasn’t in a hurry. He was just happy to be away from everything else—dogs and people alike. I watched the houses we passed on Iroquois Street. Some were open and lighted. Some were quiet and dark. The houses were smaller over here, boxier, but just like in my neighborhood, the residents maintained their yards well. They cut the grass, planted flowers, picked up the kids’ toys instead of leaving them scattered across the lawns.

Halfway up the block, a woman with blond hair, wearing a baseball cap pulled low, sat on her porch reading a book. She looked to be in her mid-twenties and wore denim shorts and white sneakers. A bottle of craft beer sat on the stoop next to her, and as I came closer, she sipped from the bottle and then turned a page. She looked up and caught my eye.

If we had lived in a big city, we would have been able to ignore each other. In Gatewood, strangers generally said hello to each other. Or at least waved. It wasn’t about whether you would have an interaction. The question was always how much of one you would have.

The woman on the porch waved.

And I waved back.

And that might have been that. But as I passed her house, a car came along and pulled into the driveway. A guy about the same age as the blond woman climbed out, and when he did, the woman on the porch jumped up and put her book aside. Neither of them seemed to care that Grendel and I were walking by.

The guy dashed up the sidewalk, and the blond woman bounded over to him. They kissed and hugged. I have no idea how long it had been since they’d seen each other. It was possible it had only been hours. But they acted like only the two of them existed in the entire world.

I took the scene in subtly, trying not to be noticed. But the truth was, they had no idea Grendel or I existed. I went on with my walk, and the couple receded behind me. Grendel and I looped through the neighborhood as darkness fell, and we finally made it back to the car and started for home.

But I couldn’t stop thinking about that couple.

How young they were. How attractive.

How joyous to see each other.

I knew—I knew—I’d be walking there again. Looking for them.

Seeing them.

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

For weeks and weeks, I watched for them. That whole summer.