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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. ALSO BY BIANCA MARAIS
  3. Dedication
  4. Map
  5. CHAPTER ONE
  6. CHAPTER TWO
  7. CHAPTER THREE
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. CHAPTER SEVEN
  12. CHAPTER EIGHT
  13. CHAPTER NINE
  14. CHAPTER TEN
  15. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  16. CHAPTER TWELVE
  17. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  19. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  21. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  22. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  23. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  44. CHAPTER FORTY
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY
  55. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  56. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  64. CHAPTER SIXTY
  65. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  66. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  67. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  74. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  75. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  76. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  77. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  84. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  85. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  86. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  87. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  88. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FIVE
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-SIX
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-SEVEN
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-EIGHT
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-NINE
  94. CHAPTER NINETY
  95. CHAPTER NINETY-ONE
  96. CHAPTER NINETY-TWO
  97. CHAPTER NINETY-THREE
  98. CHAPTER NINETY-FOUR
  99. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  100. GLOSSARY OF TERMS
  101. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

When the whistle blew for the end of extra-time, we were all up on our feet, screaming like madmen. “We won! We actually bloody won.”

“It’s Madiba magic.”

Later, when the intercom’s buzzer squawked, Ruth looked up at it, frowning. She’d said she was expecting something bad to happen, and judging by her expression, you’d have thought it had just arrived.

CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE

Zodwa

24 June 1995

Verdriet, Magaliesburg, South Africa

Zodwa lifts her hand and presses the button before she loses her courage. She has no idea what she’s going to say or how she’s going to explain her presence. Her only goal is to see if the rumors are true and if so, to find out if the black child could possibly be her son.

“Yes, hello?” A disembodied voice floats up from the intercom.

“Hello,” Zodwa replies, bending down to speak into the box.

“Can I help you?”

“I’m looking for . . .” She trails off, uncertain of what to say. Just then, a dog starts barking wildly in the background, drowning everything else out.

The camera, positioned on the electric fence and angled down toward the gate, moves and seems to focus in on her. Zodwa smiles up at it uncertainly.

“I’m sorry, I can’t hear you with the dog barking. I’m opening the gate.”

And just like that, the electric gate slides open and Zodwa is inside the huge fence walking toward the house. She turns and looks for Thembeka and catches sight of her hiding behind the wild olive trees where she left her.

Zodwa wishes that they’d spoken about the letter—that Thembeka had told Zodwa her reaction to reading it—but after she arrived to fetch Zodwa that morning, Thembeka didn’t mention it again. Even with Zodwa’s mind so full of her baby, she’s still desperate to know what her friend is thinking.

The house door opens up ahead and Zodwa’s head snaps forward. An older white woman steps outside onto the veranda. She’s slender and has gray hair that falls to just below her ears. Though her hair has grown longer since the last time Zodwa saw her, she recognizes her instantly as the woman who hugged her mother on the side of the road more than a year ago.

“Hello? Can I help you?” the woman asks.

“Hello, ma—madam,” Zodwa stammers in reply.

A black dog suddenly slips out the house and runs at Zodwa, who shrinks back in fear.

“Jez!” the woman calls but the dog doesn’t listen to her.

Instead, it keeps barreling toward Zodwa, its tail wagging all the while. When it reaches her, it jumps up on its hind legs as though greeting a long-lost friend.

Oh my God. It’s Shadow. It’s Mama’s dog.