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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prologue
  5. One
  6. Two
  7. Three
  8. Four
  9. Five
  10. Six
  11. Seven
  12. Eight
  13. Nine
  14. Ten
  15. Eleven
  16. Twelve
  17. Thirteen
  18. Fourteen
  19. Fifteen
  20. Sixteen
  21. Seventeen
  22. Eighteen
  23. Nineteen
  24. Twenty
  25. Twenty-one
  26. Twenty-two
  27. Twenty-three
  28. Twenty-four
  29. Twenty-five
  30. Twenty-six
  31. Twenty-seven
  32. Twenty-eight
  33. Twenty-nine
  34. Thirty
  35. Thirty-one
  36. Thirty-two
  37. Thirty-three
  38. Thirty-four
  39. Thirty-five
  40. Thirty-six
  41. Thirty-seven
  42. Thirty-eight
  43. Thirty-nine
  44. Forty
  45. Forty-one
  46. Forty-two
  47. Forty-three
  48. Forty-four
  49. Forty-five
  50. Forty-six
  51. Forty-seven
  52. Forty-eight
  53. Forty-nine
  54. Fifty
  55. Fifty-one
  56. Fifty-two
  57. Fifty-three
  58. Fifty-four
  59. Fifty-five
  60. Fifty-six
  61. Fifty-seven
  62. Fifty-eight
  63. Fifty-nine
  64. Sixty
  65. Sixty-one
  66. Sixty-two
  67. Sixty-three
  68. Sixty-four
  69. Sixty-five
  70. Sixty-six
  71. Sixty-seven
  72. Epilogue
  73. Acknowledgments
  74. Read More
  75. Prologue
  76. One
  77. Two
  78. Three
  79. Four
  80. Follow Merilyn online
  81. Dedication

Carla sat back, exasperated. ‘Gerry, this is serious. Whoever is writing them may be involved in Connor O’Brian’s murder. I need to see the others – all of them.’

‘Carla, I can’t without Eve’s say-so.’

‘She agreed to one – she must have known the others would come out.’

Gerry looked sceptical.

‘You got her to show us the latest one, so you may as well give us the rest.’

She kept her eyes on him, but he still hesitated.

‘You’re not going to make me get a court order, are you?’ She laughed, Gerry didn’t, because they both knew she could.

‘I’ll get them for you,’ he said, pushing back his chair to stand. ‘But let me tell Eve first, OK?’

‘Of course,’ she smiled, ‘and thanks, Gerry.’

Seventeen

Then

Alf’s Café is a mix of old and new. The tables and chairs are totally 1970s, but the photos on the wall are present-day and I wonder if he’s taken them himself: black and white, the odd moody colour shot, all depicting shadows from people lying in the sun.

As I examine each picture I wonder why he doesn’t want actual people in them, but adults are strange and get odd fixations, so this is probably one of his. Shame, though. Surely people are more important than their shadows?

‘Ice-cream waffle?’ Alf’s voice fills the café. I stop looking at the photographs and check to see what Aoife says. She’s sitting on the counter, legs swinging.

‘Sure,’ making it sound like it’s not the biggest treat we’ve had since we got here. ‘With sprinkles?’

Alf grins. His teeth fall all over each other and I’m not sure where one starts and another stops, but his eyes are bright like a cat’s, so I can’t help but smile.

‘Sprinkles it is,’ he says.

We eat warm waffles dripping with ice cream as Alf quizzes us about our families.

‘So, you have a dad?’

Aoife shrugs.

‘And what about your mum?’

Aoife points to my plastered arm, her mouth full, and while I’m annoyed about the inaccuracy – it was after all my dad who broke it – I can sort of see her point. Where is my mum?

Alf is watching our exchange. He’s standing behind the gallery kitchen divide, hands behind, like he’s about to pull himself up onto the work surface. But of course he won’t: too much effort, too much weight, even I can see that.

When we’re finished eating Aoife says we should go, but rain is pounding the windows so hard it’s almost impossible to believe they won’t crack.

‘You want a lift?’

‘It’s OK, we’ll be fine.’