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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prologue
  5. One
  6. Two
  7. Three
  8. Four
  9. Five
  10. Six
  11. Seven
  12. Eight
  13. Nine
  14. Ten
  15. Eleven
  16. Twelve
  17. Thirteen
  18. Fourteen
  19. Fifteen
  20. Sixteen
  21. Seventeen
  22. Eighteen
  23. Nineteen
  24. Twenty
  25. Twenty-one
  26. Twenty-two
  27. Twenty-three
  28. Twenty-four
  29. Twenty-five
  30. Twenty-six
  31. Twenty-seven
  32. Twenty-eight
  33. Twenty-nine
  34. Thirty
  35. Thirty-one
  36. Thirty-two
  37. Thirty-three
  38. Thirty-four
  39. Thirty-five
  40. Thirty-six
  41. Thirty-seven
  42. Thirty-eight
  43. Thirty-nine
  44. Forty
  45. Forty-one
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  47. Forty-three
  48. Forty-four
  49. Forty-five
  50. Forty-six
  51. Forty-seven
  52. Forty-eight
  53. Forty-nine
  54. Fifty
  55. Fifty-one
  56. Fifty-two
  57. Fifty-three
  58. Fifty-four
  59. Fifty-five
  60. Fifty-six
  61. Fifty-seven
  62. Fifty-eight
  63. Fifty-nine
  64. Sixty
  65. Sixty-one
  66. Sixty-two
  67. Sixty-three
  68. Sixty-four
  69. Sixty-five
  70. Sixty-six
  71. Sixty-seven
  72. Epilogue
  73. Acknowledgments
  74. Read More
  75. Prologue
  76. One
  77. Two
  78. Three
  79. Four
  80. Follow Merilyn online
  81. Dedication

I think about my mum, all round and smiley. How she packs me lunches for school and makes sure I have the salt and vinegar crisps. How she always asks how my day was, regardless of her own, so that even when I visited her in hospital in a daze – accompanied by an overzealous social worker – her first words were ‘How was school?’ as I tried not to notice the blood at the edges of her mouth or the eye that couldn’t open.

‘I miss mine,’ I hear myself say. ‘But she prefers my dad.’

Aoife nods.

We lie for a while, listening to the cries and the shouts from below and above, before Aoife rolls over to face me, both hand palms tucked together under one cheek. ‘School tomorrow,’ she says.

I stare at her. There’s the slightest edge of fear in her eyes and it makes my heart start to pound. She squeezes my arm and I squeeze hers back. It anchors me.

‘Together, yeah?’ she says.

I stare at her: freckles, red curls, big, searching eyes. ‘Yeah,’ I reply.

Thirteen

When Nell’s mobile rang it took seconds for it to drag her from a dream she instantly couldn’t remember.

‘We’ve got a body.’

Nell could barely focus on Bremer’s voice.

‘A body?’ She cradled the mobile under her chin and reached for the glass of water beside her bed.

‘Yes, and from the description, it sounds like Connor O’Brian.’

The man’s body lay face down on the floor, the back of his head caved in. Nell pulled on her blue plastic gloves as Paul nodded downwards.

‘The pathologist has had a look at the face and it’s definitely O’Brian.’

Nell didn’t need a pathologist to tell her that, but she nodded just the same. ‘Who’s the pathologist?’

‘Eve Graham.’

‘Twice in one week, lucky us.’ Nell refused to think about Kelly-Anne’s confession and the doubt that threw on Eve; what she needed to do was go through the scene, and do it methodically.

Nell knelt on the floor, noting the congealed blood matted into what was left of O’Brian’s skull. ‘Did Eve give us any idea of time of death or method used?’

‘She gave her usual “I’m not committing to anything until I’ve got him on the slab”, but she did say she thinks it was within the last eight hours and death was due to blunt trauma to the head.’

Nell looked over at him. Paul held up his hands.

‘They’ve got to call it, even if it is bloody obvious.’

‘Where is she now?’

‘In the kitchen, or what passes for a kitchen anyway, checking out a couple of blood patches.’